JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 Now that I have finally made the decision to get the sleeve and started the process. I am even more uncomfortable in my own skin. Feel disgusted with myself for getting like this and can't wait for surgery! Didn't think it was possible feeling even more uncomfortable. Sigh 1 FedUpwithBeingFat reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Displaced Va Girl 23 Posted July 27, 2014 Omg I'm in the same boat! How did this happen to me? I'm mad at myself but at the same time I don't know how I could of stopped it. I'm so uncomfortable in ANYTHING I wear, my size 18 is getting to tight and I feel so alone and humiliated. My husband is gorgeous and I know people are wondering why he hasn't left. All my friends are tiny and I hate taking photos. I'm lucky bc I've always loved myself and I'm a bit selfish. If I could only get through jumping hoops for my insurance co. and get the sleeve so I can take care of myself the way I should have. I deserve. Second chance and so do you. We WILL get through this, I promise! 3 FedUpwithBeingFat, peteyrulz and #9grammy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Micky71 71 Posted July 27, 2014 JenSul that makes alot of sense, I feel exactly the same way. My surgery is in a month and I have never felt so self aware as I do now. I just keep telling myself that I am doing something about it now. Ive made a huge decision to add the VSG tool to my arsenal of healthy lifestyle knowledge that I have learned from years of diets. With this feeling the hardest thing for me has been stepping into those group pictures with my slender friends on my recent vacation. I just kept telling myself.... get over it Micky... 12 months from now you will #1 be glad you have these shots to compare progress and #2 you will never feel this way again. Best of luck to you and I look forward to revisiting this topic with you once we are both a year out. 1 FedUpwithBeingFat reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
roundisashape 712 Posted July 27, 2014 What you're saying makes PERFECT sense to me. I've never felt worse - both physically and emotionally - than I have since I started this process. Maybe it's a combination of becoming hyper aware of everything that isn't right because of all the pre-op doctor visits, the fact that it's on my mind all the time now, and general anxiousness to get on with my new life. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
FedUpwithBeingFat 28 Posted July 27, 2014 Thank you all for putting a voice to what I have been SO ASHAMED to verbally acknowledge. I used to model professionally, loved beautiful clothes, and felt great about myself. I too do not understand how I let myself get into this condition, but felt POWERLESS to stop eating. I really appreciate your comments as it helps me to understand that I'm not the only one who knows better, but has TOTALLY lost control. I have been successful in every area of my life EXCEPT managing my weight. I hope the Sleeve will help me to gain control and confidence again. I will be here to support each of you as you progress towards a healthier version of yourself! Thank you all for sharing your thoughts. 1 Displaced Va Girl reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
FedUpwithBeingFat 28 Posted July 27, 2014 @@JenSul Hi JenSul when is your surgery date? I wish you the best. I have just started the process. Did the initial group meeting for general information. Will have my psych visit and surgeon visit next week. Hoping for a Sept. Surgery date. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
FedUpwithBeingFat 28 Posted July 27, 2014 @@roundisashape Hi, Do you have a surgery date yet? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 Omg I'm in the same boat! How did this happen to me? I'm mad at myself but at the same time I don't know how I could of stopped it. I'm so uncomfortable in ANYTHING I wear, my size 18 is getting to tight and I feel so alone and humiliated. My husband is gorgeous and I know people are wondering why he hasn't left. All my friends are tiny and I hate taking photos. I'm lucky bc I've always loved myself and I'm a bit selfish. If I could only get through jumping hoops for my insurance co. and get the sleeve so I can take care of myself the way I should have. I deserve. Second chance and so do you. We WILL get through this, I promise! You could have written this about me!!! Amazing! Same size and everything. My 18 are snug also. Do you have a surgery date yet? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 JenSul that makes alot of sense, I feel exactly the same way. My surgery is in a month and I have never felt so self aware as I do now. I just keep telling myself that I am doing something about it now. Ive made a huge decision to add the VSG tool to my arsenal of healthy lifestyle knowledge that I have learned from years of diets. With this feeling the hardest thing for me has been stepping into those group pictures with my slender friends on my recent vacation. I just kept telling myself.... get over it Micky... 12 months from now you will #1 be glad you have these shots to compare progress and #2 you will never feel this way again. Best of luck to you and I look forward to revisiting this topic with you once we are both a year out. Mickey- photos are the worse!!! Keep in-touch! Would love to Celebrate ourselves in a year! 1 Micky71 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 What you're saying makes PERFECT sense to me. I've never felt worse - both physically and emotionally - than I have since I started this process. Maybe it's a combination of becoming hyper aware of everything that isn't right because of all the pre-op doctor visits, the fact that it's on my mind all the time now, and general anxiousness to get on with my new life. Can't wait to begin my new life. Wish it was hear already! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 @@JenSul Hi JenSul when is your surgery date? I wish you the best. I have just started the process. Did the initial group meeting for general information. Will have my psych visit and surgeon visit next week. Hoping for a Sept. Surgery date. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts. I am exactly where you are right now just starting the process. Have a Nut appt this week. My Weight Center takes a little longer. 4-6 months to surgery. I'm hoping November. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JenSul 21 Posted July 27, 2014 Thank you so much everyone for your thoughts and feelings. Glad I'm not alone. I will be here for each and everyone of you and support you 100%! I will be your biggest cheerleader if you need. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
roundisashape 712 Posted July 27, 2014 @@roundisashape Hi, Do you have a surgery date yet? Not yet, but soon, I hope! I have my last nutritionist appointment on 8/21, then they'll submit to insurance and hopefully get me a date Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
friejenn 42 Posted July 29, 2014 I can relate to everything that has been said. I have my last nutritionist appt. august 26 then submit to insurance. Hoping for late sept. Or early oct. I can't wait to start feeling better and get back in the game of life!! 2 FedUpwithBeingFat and JenSul reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Displaced Va Girl 23 Posted July 29, 2014 You could have written this about me!!! Amazing! Same size and everything. My 18 are snug also. Do you have a surgery date yet? I have a lap band that has not worked and now my insurance co denied my request for converting to sleeve. I'll keep you posted. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites