My weight has increased 20 pounds from my stable point over the past few months....

[RJ'S/beginning 5,358]

Life of the party eh. Bright and future falling into place.

Depression makes us comedians in public. So does being over weight. I was the best at it....I could have made a dead man laugh when I was depressed and over weight....We also exceed scholastically...But the issues that causes us to be that way are not fixed...It is suppressed and hidden in a dark place.

Chose to continue to be the life of the party all the time when you are thinner. Continue to be smart beyond what is normal after you are thin too.

But get your health in order as well and all things will be as 'ducks in a row.' Stop abusing yourself because you think you are not worth it..We all are and you are too....Please rethink all this abuse and seek help, or at least someone to talk to that can listen and share their experience of self destruction......And the way they turned around..You are so worth it! Okay!

[throwaway557 8]

Holy shit guys, I do not know how to show you I am not a troll.

I think I was a VERY poor candidate having an eating disorder, and I wasnt ready. Thats 10000000000% sure. My weight keeps going up and up and up and all I feel I can do right now is either get help or passively watch my weight increase.

RJ's/beginning, I do not know any body who has FAILED after the surgery like I have. As in, went in the COMPLETE other way. I think I am so insecure and maybe depressed because there was a party last night with a lot of my friends, and I chose to stay inside. Why? Because I dont like going out in public, where pictures will be taken and shit, knowing my friends will be thinking "Man, he really let himself go....."

[LipstickLady 25,682]

Ignore the troll comments.

[VSGAnn2014 12,992]

Have you taken any of our advice yet? As in DONE anything differently yet?

If not, what else would you like us to do?

[RJ'S/beginning 5,358]

Holy **** guys, I do not know how to show you I am not a troll.

I think I was a VERY poor candidate having an eating disorder, and I wasnt ready. Thats 10000000000% sure. My weight keeps going up and up and up and all I feel I can do right now is either get help or passively watch my weight increase.

RJ's/beginning, I do not know any body who has FAILED after the surgery like I have. As in, went in the COMPLETE other way. I think I am so insecure and maybe depressed because there was a party last night with a lot of my friends, and I chose to stay inside. Why? Because I dont like going out in public, where pictures will be taken and ****, knowing my friends will be thinking "Man, he really let himself go....."

Failing is not an option. Putting it on hold..maybe. But you need to find help so that you can succeed okay......You seem very intelligent to me...I know it is in there somewhere and you can do it..You have to want to put the work into it and get into it....You will get out of it a healthy new and happier you.....

No going back..You did this..Time to go forward and take the leap to a better you..Come on dig your nails in and get at it...You got this!

You need us..were here....We will try to help you! Okay!!!!!!!!!!!

Edited July 28, 2014 by RJ'S/beginning

[throwaway557 8]

VSGAnn, honestly? No. But I was going to go either today or tomorrow and go to costco and get the Protein shakes and live off of those for a week....Have 4 or so a day...or try.

Well failing IS an option because I am doing it. But its not the right option, the right option would be to go get those Protein Shakes and follow the doctors orders and live off of them for a bit.

[LipstickLady 25,682]

VSGAnn, honestly? No. But I was going to go either today or tomorrow and go to costco and get the Protein shakes and live off of those for a week....Have 4 or so a day...or try.

Well failing IS an option because I am doing it. But its not the right option, the right option would be to go get those Protein Shakes and follow the doctors orders and live off of them for a bit.

Add in salads, lean meats and Greek yogurt if you need food. First three days will suck but you can do this!

[throwaway557 8]

I have chicken, but honestly I havent been cooking in awhile and that could be my problem. When I was cooking, my weight was going up but very slowly. Now since I havent been cooking, its been going up pretty fast.

I want low-prep foods, so I think Ill stick with yogurt and the shakes. I dont trust salads because at costco theres these premade salads for 300 calories and I can have two of them easily...

[longtimecoming7 390]

Where's your mom? Where is your family support?

[LipstickLady 25,682]

costco has excellent pre sliced deli meat, fresh bagged salad, cooked plain chicken, pre cooked shrimp, individually frozen pieces of fish...

Lots of great options if you can avoid the samples and resist other temptations.

[throwaway557 8]

My mom's the reason I made this throwaway...what happened last time on another account is that I posted on here, it got sent to my email, my email for some reason autologged on, on her computer, so if she loaded up the website email then it would log on to my email...she would see bariatric pal or VSG whatever it was, then freaked out and talked to the surgeons.

Caused her a lot of anxiety and shit so I dont tell her, because then she freaks out and when she freaks out, it pushes me away from her....and we are already pretty far away as is......

I'm my own support....and Im not doing a good job

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

You sound like a guy that used to post before. Very much the same thing.

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

Oops.. just read the above post

[throwaway557 8]

You remember me all this time ago? Am I really one of the very few who struggles here?

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

The struggles and complete disregard for your own health and happiness is very unique