Why I made this decision...

[IdaliaMay 13]

In 5 days, I will be having a vertical sleeve done.

I have been overweight my entire life. And food was a comfort zone. Unfortunately, as a child these habits were born through my mother. I have no blame or I'll feelings towards her, she battled obesity her entire life as well as her mother. It's a lovely family trait...

Any who.. Fast forward to 3 years ago. My fiance and I became a couple. Relationships and I are not friends when it comes to my health. I get lazy, I eat out with my boyfriend, I eat more food than I should, more often than I should. I was stupid, I didn't pay attention to what I'm doing. I gained 70 pounds and ended up at 320 pounds which I then sustained a knee injury. No... I wasn't playing sports. I was just too heavy to support myself. About 8 months later I sustained a serious back injury that for the last year has kept me in a stationary lifestyle. Thus, spiraling into depression and self hatred.

I made this decision a long time ago, as my mom has the gastric bypass 7 years ago and has been extremely successful. But my mindset wasn't right for surgery until recently.

I have worked extremely hard for this, 6 months of diet consultation with my primary doctor, tons of loop holes with my insurance, and more time and money that I ever thought I'd be able to give. But I did it. And now, with the support of my friends and family and Co workers... My surgery is a reality and I'm totally ready.

I've so far lost 19 pounds total since I started the prerequisite 6 month supervised weight loss, and 9 pounds of that since the start of my liquid diet, my goal being 6 pounds.

On this journey, I've been able to identify with food differently. I cook at home way more often, I make smaller portions and I don't eat as often as I used to. Sometimes, I get really pissed off thinking a out how I wasn't able to do this before. But honestly, I have done it before. But it comes back. It always comes back. The biggest reason for this surgery is because I needed something more permanent. And I realize it's always possible to regain the weight. But I think... Since I've been making these changes through out my life... And rethinking my relationship with food, and not to mention the support I have in my life, especially my mom... I have a really low chance of failure.

I'm really proud of myself these days. Sometimes I feel silly boasting about it, but modesty here can step aside. It's my year! It's my turn to live life to the fullest! And if I can do it, any one can. Trust me.

Take care y'all. I am glad I could share my story.

To be continued.....

[Pepper123 320]

Good luck Dear all the best….boast away u deserve all the good health coming you're way!!!!!!

[Cupcake 801]

Congrats on your choice to be healthy and boost away you deserve it as well as you earned it. I look forward to reading your post and good luck with your surgery you got this.

[Texasmeg 568]

It sounds like your head is in the right place for this - I expect you to do well!

[chris1142 148]

Thanks for telling us your story. I wish you a trouble-free transition to sleeved life.