Feeling guilty that I'm not excited about being approved after 8 years worth of attempts!

[iamdeannadixon 2]

I have literally fought, cried, prayed, and sought after WLS for 8 years. My first attempt was in 2006 and was denied because my insurance required 5 years of documented weight history (that I couldn't provide), plus a 6 month waiting period. After that I went on my own personal journey to lose the weight, and regained it of course. Then i attempted again in 2010 and paid for cobra for 6 months to only find that they had made a revision to my insurance after the new year, and no longer covered WLS. So finally after all of my attempts, and failed natural attempts at keeping the weight off, i received an approval from BCBS and have my surgery date of July 25th. I have so many mixed feelings, and unexpected fears. I start my pre-op diet on July 11th, but I started a PRE Pre-op diet just to get my mind adjusted. I'm just thankful after all of this time, i finally get the blessing of this surgery. I just wish i was a lot more excited than i actually am. I almost feel guilty that I'm not jumping for Joy? Anyone else with a similar experience?

[tieia 2]

I think that it's scary to know you're doing something so permanent and drastic. I'm 12 years post op. You'll be so glad you did it.

[Tgarden 76]

First of all, congratulations on your approval! I can only imagine the ups and downs you have been through over the years, and your mind might just still be in denial. You have been through a lot, you have obviously worked hard to get approved, so give yourself permission to jump for joy!! I'm only 3 months out of surgery, and feel amazing. You will do great!!