August 18th date! Get me off this roller coaster!

[TatroBenay 3]

I just got my date yesterday, August 18th for me!!! I am 45, 5'11" and 310 lbs. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I have actually told several people, and had nothing but positive feedback so far, not that I was looking for any. The only people I am concerned about their opinion is my husband and my children. They are all supportive because the have seen my struggle first hand and have lived the yo-yo diets with me. I am so excited to get my life back. I have not been over weight my whole life, and I don't even know who I am anymore. For me it is like I will be getting a new start at life again. I can't erase the last 15 years, but I can make changes now so the next 30 are better. I made the decision to do this for my physical health of course, but for my mental health too. I am ready to get off of this circle race track that keeps going around and around in the same circle, 20 lbs off = 30 lbs on, 40 lbs off = 50 lbs back on. Like a roller coaster, lots of highs and lows, ups and downs, but the same circle over and over. No one knows the hell that goes on in your head when you feel like you can't even control your own body and the failure you feel every time you take 2 steps forward, to only fall 4 steps back. I am so luck to be married for 26 years to my best friend and one of the most supportive people I know. He has loved me through thin and thick, happy and depressed. I am not only doing this for me, but for him also. He deserves someone better then what I have been able to give him. Both our children moved out last year and we are empty nesters. Life has been so full of adventure so far, but my weight has definitely been a factor in holding us back in some of the things we can do. I can't wait to start this new adventure with him and see what kind of adventures we can do together.

[jojoreno 62]

Good for you! I've been on that roller coaster too.