Desperate and panicking

[yescobar 42]

1 month post op. It's been a roller coaster, I got a intestinal infection my 6th day and I had to go back to the hospital because by mistake I was not drinking a antibiotic I was supposed to. Diarrea for 5 days with out eating nor drinking anything only with serium in the hospital (didn't know where the diarrea came from). Any way, today I cried the whole day to my mom because I am regreting this surgery, I'm 20 years old I don't live in the same country my parents do because I am in college (right now im in Summer so I have until August with them) I feel I'm never going to be a normal person again, I always eat nervous thinking something wrong is going to happen while eating, I never have energy. all i want to do is sleep to scape from reality, people tell me im skinnier but that doesn't even gets me happy. I've lost 30 lbs already but I am not happy because I feel that after 10 months I can regain those lbs like it has happen to many people. I feel that I am not loosing any weight since I started pureed diet because I can see it on my face but my mom wont let me use the scale. I feel im just 20 and I already messed up a part of my system and I will never be able to enjoy overeating with my friends in college or drinking with them. I've became more anxious than before (they increase the dosis for my clonazepam) because I can't sleep thinking that something wrong will happen to me. I need someone to please motivate me and tell me that everything will be okay. My psycologists are not really helping, they tell me what they know I want to hear. I know them already and they always do that. I get constantly hungry and I crave food a lot, cant stop thinking on sushi! At this point I dont know what to think or do, I've always been a motivated young girl who would always exercise and diet but I got to a point that I would loose weight and then gain again so I decided to do this gastric sleeve even though many of my friends and family told me I could do it naturally but I've been all my life trying and I do get results but after i drop them!

[MissME 45]

I am sorry that you were sick after surgery. I didn't have anything like that but I did have a rough first month because the liquid diet and pureed foods were not appetizing and I wasn't getting the Protein that I needed. Eventually things got better. As you heal the fatigue will wane. You will be able to eat more choices which helps to ease anxiety about eating.

From your post I see that you feel bad that you won't be able to overeat and drink with your friends. That may be true, so why don't you do something different with them? Go to a concert, dancing, rollerskating, miniature golfing.... You can be social. You don't have to overeat to be social. Also, try not to mourn the things that got you to this point in the first place. At 20 you have some unique opportunities that the rest of us didn't have, the biggest one is to nip your health problems in the bud before they could become unmanageable.

My advice to you is have faith in yourself. Your experience is not going to be that same as someone else's experience. You have to make the choice that once you are feeling better you will stick to the diet plan laid out for you in order for you to meet and maintain your goal. Don't worry about gaining weight back. Have confidence in yourself that you can and will keep the weight off.

I know you can do it!

[avocadoPAK 13]

I am sorry that you were sick after surgery. I didn't have anything like that but I did have a rough first month because the liquid diet and pureed foods were not appetizing and I wasn't getting the Protein that I needed. Eventually things got better. As you heal the fatigue will wane. You will be able to eat more choices which helps to ease anxiety about eating.

From your post I see that you feel bad that you won't be able to overeat and drink with your friends. That may be true, so why don't you do something different with them? Go to a concert, dancing, rollerskating, miniature golfing.... You can be social. You don't have to overeat to be social. Also, try not to mourn the things that got you to this point in the first place. At 20 you have some unique opportunities that the rest of us didn't have, the biggest one is to nip your health problems in the bud before they could become unmanageable.

My advice to you is have faith in yourself. Your experience is not going to be that same as someone else's experience. You have to make the choice that once you are feeling better you will stick to the diet plan laid out for you in order for you to meet and maintain your goal. Don't worry about gaining weight back. Have confidence in yourself that you can and will keep the weight off.

I know you can do it!

This is helping me

[anna9/15 93]

1 month post op. It's been a roller coaster, I got a intestinal infection my 6th day and I had to go back to the hospital because by mistake I was not drinking a antibiotic I was supposed to. Diarrea for 5 days with out eating nor drinking anything only with serium in the hospital (didn't know where the diarrea came from). Any way, today I cried the whole day to my mom because I am regreting this surgery, I'm 20 years old I don't live in the same country my parents do because I am in college (right now im in Summer so I have until August with them) I feel I'm never going to be a normal person again, I always eat nervous thinking something wrong is going to happen while eating, I never have energy. all i want to do is sleep to scape from reality, people tell me im skinnier but that doesn't even gets me happy. I've lost 30 lbs already but I am not happy because I feel that after 10 months I can regain those lbs like it has happen to many people. I feel that I am not loosing any weight since I started pureed diet because I can see it on my face but my mom wont let me use the scale. I feel im just 20 and I already messed up a part of my system and I will never be able to enjoy overeating with my friends in college or drinking with them. I've became more anxious than before (they increase the dosis for my clonazepam) because I can't sleep thinking that something wrong will happen to me. I need someone to please motivate me and tell me that everything will be okay. My psycologists are not really helping, they tell me what they know I want to hear. I know them already and they always do that. I get constantly hungry and I crave food a lot, cant stop thinking on sushi! At this point I dont know what to think or do, I've always been a motivated young girl who would always exercise and diet but I got to a point that I would loose weight and then gain again so I decided to do this gastric sleeve even though many of my friends and family told me I could do it naturally but I've been all my life trying and I do get results but after i drop them!

I am in the same exact boat as you.

[anna9/15 93]

How are u feeling

[VeroN86 60]

How are you now? It's been a long time since you've posted on this subject. You look beautiful btw