One week - Happy but battling myself mentally

[Mrs King 52]

Hi everyone!! Hope everyone's journey is going REALLY well whether you're waiting for surgery or have already been sleeved. Today marks 7 days since I started the 2 day pre op liquid diet (surgery on June 6th). I stepped on the scale this morning and found that I have lost 20lbs in the last week. While I had that moment of "OMG! That's awesome!! I'm happy!". Then I fall back into the "I'm still a major fattie though" and start doubting if the scale is "teasing me". I know this is part of the process...there is the difficulty of leaving the "big girl" vision behind but when does it happen?? And how do you really help yourself to break that mental block?

[charchar3 3]

i dealt with this a lot, pre and post op. to get it out of my head, i reiterate to myself how good i feel and how good im going to look in a few months. i still struggle with it so you are not alone on that one hun, just keep it up! change will come

Edited June 11, 2014 by charchar3

[RJ'S/beginning 5,358]

Look, we all have big fat heads. And probably always will look at ourselves not as others see us but how we see ourselves. 20 lbs. Great..You are on your way to being a loser like the rest of us.

There is a lot of retraining your brain in this journey and only you can control how you see this or how your adventure will go. We all see ourselves as large even if we are small and we will always take the first pot shot at ourselves because we want to do it before anyone else has the chance..Years of abuse has done that to us. It is not fair but it is what it is.

Be proud of every lb gone. That brings you closer to goal. But it is going to be a bumpy ride. Full of tears, moods, laughing, and brain training. If you don't change how we feel about food then we cannot succeed. One step at a time...And handle it as it comes along. Worry about today's worries and tomorrow there will be other things to test your resolve.

[KrissySMD 38]

Stay off that scale! Only step on once a week. You'll feel better that way. But, yes, losing weight with the pre op diet is weird. Especially when you have support people questioning why you can't just eat like that everyday. Ugh! Too late now because I've had the surgery and moving on!

[BSU 61]

You are doing awesome! Way to go. Just remember, it is a marathon, not a sprint. It is going to take a long time to get where we want to be. Try to think long term. I am staying off the scale as well. I'll check every two weeks at most. I know if I follow the plan, over time this will work.

[RJ'S/beginning 5,358]

In the 19 months that I have been on this journey I have never had a stall or gain...Never been disappointed...Want to know why? Because I only weigh myself at my Dr,s office. Through out 19 months I have probably been weighed 10 times. Each time a happy moment.... Please do not get bogged down in numbers. At this point they mean nothing except anxiety and fear of failure....

Trust me..It is self defeating to do it constantly. It is a way to sabotage yourself!

[queenie47 45]

It has become apparent that my eyes are liars!!! I have reverse anerexia I look in the mirror and think I look cute and dont need to actually have the surgery. Then I step on the scale and the truth slaps me in the face with reality. It also has come to my attention that only people who dont think I should have the surgery are people who are my size or larger all of my healthy weight friends are supporting me 100%

[RKPG2angels 11]

<p>It has become apparent that my eyes are liars!!! I have reverse anerexia I look in the mirror and think I look cute and dont need to actually have the surgery. Then I step on the scale and the truth slaps me in the face with reality. It also has come to my attention that only people who dont think I should have the surgery are people who are my size or larger all of my healthy weight friends are supporting me 100% </p>

I had opposite reactions. All my bigger friends were super excited for me, while the smaller ones (including my parents) ALWAYS immediately jump to the risks and tell me how most people still can't keep the weight off long term. Don't know if that's true or not but they basically made me feel like I was being thoughtless and risking my life for vanity because they can't understand why I don't just diet and exercise like them. In my experience, even many people that have been drug addicts still can't fathom food addiction and how incredibly hard it is to kick alone.

Anyways, I needed this surgery because I could not see myself in the mirror anymore. Just a disgusting fat stranger.

If you love yourself enough to look in the mirror and smile at the image then I assume you love yourself enough to make the right decision for your body and health.

Btw I'm 10 days post op and have not regretted a single second...not even that dreadful first day