Fear

[jdmama911 224]

I haven't been on here in awhile. Life has been crazy busy though! Here is a pretty current day after surgery pic and a now pic. Life has been pretty good. The thoughts below are underlying thoughts that I know need addressed and I'm not sure where to start or even if it's as huge of a issue as I'm thinking it is.

I'm scared though. I'm scared because my husband is so in awe of my success he is slightly blinded. If I slip up he doesn't see it. I'm not where I expected yet and don't want to be content. I'm down to 195. I mean, if in a few years, I ended up at this weight and this is where I was happy eating I would be fine, but I have never been lower, and would like to see if I would be happy maintaining around 175. I really am happy with how things have been going, until the last couple of weeks. My weight loss is staying on a consistent pattern, but I haven't been as vigilant with my eating habits. I'm eating more junk food and allowing it to be in the house. I know it's a slip up and will be fixing it the second company leaves on Friday.

I'm also scared because I caught myself emotional eating this weekend after my husband quit his job. He has some temporary jobs/work that is off the books, but this job loss was sudden and he didn't have time to secure a real job before he quit. Ugh, my PA told me at my last check up that I need to give myself more credit for the weight loss. I have been successful on a lot of fronts, but fear and self doubt still are a big battle for me that I haven't been able to conquer yet. This part of the journey is a lot more difficult for me than any part I've experienced yet. Sorry if I'm not making much sense, but I've been up since 6am, tired, and reflecting on my eating habits this weekend which alarmed me...Carry on

HW: 335 9/11/13

SW: 297

CW: 195 6/8/14

[sofi_sunshine 14]

You've lost so much weight.... I have the same fear as you but I've lost significantly less. And, like you, I seem to be an emotional eater as well.
Also, it doesn't matter how many people tell me I've changed and "good for you"- that all goes out the window if there's chocolate or sweets nearby. It makes me really doubt long I will keep losing.
I can really relate to what you're saying.



[moonlitestarbrite 902]

do you have a therapist?