So surreal! Two days until surgery!

[Butterflyhigh 504]

Two days until surgery. It is so surreal. I first started looking into WLS 12 years ago after my first daughter was born. Two years ago I began to seriously research, ask questions, talk to doctors, and get real with myself about the reasons why I have this constant weight battle. One year ago I made the committed decision to do the gastric sleeve. I chose a doctor, put my big deposit down, budgeted the money (I'm a self-pay).....and then canceled two surgery dates due to lingering fears and concerns!

I have finally..FINALLY worked through each and every concern. I was dead set on not telling anyone except my eldest daughter and ex husband (because somebody has to drive me there and back!). Just a few days ago I broke down and told my mother and best friend. Both seem to be very supportive, albeit shocked at first. It feels so much better this way and even though I am nervous (oh dear God I'm so nervous) this time I feel like running into the surgery room!

I only have a three day pre-op diet because of my low bmi. I started that yesterday. I need to hit the grocery store to get things the kids can easily make themselves and first week food supplies for me. And baby spoons. I think that's really my last couple of steps.

I am only concerned now about getting enough fluids in and the psychological effects of not being able to eat a plateful of something I love. After all my research and reading other's experiences I am putting my faith in what I hear over and over again.....that post-surgery the small amounts of wonderful tasting food will be more satisfying and every bite more meaningful than it is now in it's large quantity.

Any words of advise or encouragement would be happily received! I can almost feel the second hand tick-tocking down the time.