Train of thought

[Bobby46 327]

I haven't even been approved yet....but, because my paperwork was sent in to insurance last week my brain doesn't shut up. Constantly thinking and questioning....am I doing the right thing? I'm 46, why now? I want this, I don't want this. I'm scared, I'm excited. I am so anxious I can hardly sleep. What if it doesn't work. Am I actually starving myself with this surgery. What am I going to do with myself as a thin person? I have no idea. And then....I cant wait to be thin! I cant wait to buy new clothes and be comfortable in them. I cant wait to mow the lawn and not feel like collapsing afterward. Or walk the dog and need a nap. Then back to....is this the right thing for me? Does anyone else play this game with themselves? Were you 100% positive from the moment you made up your mind to do it or did you flip flop too? Because, every time I question myself about whether I'm sure or not, I always say Yes!! Just wondering if I'm alone with this train of thought?

[MrsHarris 17]

I feel the same way. It's big decision for us.

Best wishes

[SherB 220]

Ditto, I am scared and excited. I am more afraid of the actual surgery itself than anything else. I want to be around for my 7 year old daughter. I no longer want to be the fat mom. I flip and flop daily. I think it is the unknown that gets to us.

[Bonbini 67]

I was sleeved May 5th. I felt just like you. The stress was unreal. I am so happy I did it. I really feel the stress of what should I do,was the worst part of it.

[Bobby46 327]

Thank you all. Its nice to know youre not alone even in the "thinking/waiting" stage. I had anxiety attacks for 3 nights. I think I crossed that bridge. But it was a rough one! Hopefully it wont return when I hear back from insurance! I'm a mess lol

[Brooklyn girl 4]

I think that what you're feeling is normal. For me, there were times when I questioned what i was doing. Was I ready to deal with the possible complications? Was this decision too drastic? But I had a breakthrough, during my pre-op diet, that I hope will help you. (BTW my surgery is this coming Tuesday) During my pre-op diet stage, I have had to avoid all my favorite foods. But there were times when my husband would make some delicious dishes. I mean the family's got to eat, right?? Anyhow, I was looking and smelling the delicious meatloaf that he had just made and I thought, "Wow, if i could just have a serving? a small serving?" I suddenly realized I love this dish so much that I would not be able stop at one serving and would probably eat at least 3 servings. At that moment I realized that having this surgery was not an option for me. It was a must if I wanted to have any control over my life and be there for my family. Perhaps, next time you are famished and looking at your favorite meal, you can ask yourself, "Can I stop at one serving?" If you can, then perhaps you have the discipline needed to lose the weight naturally. For me that moment convinced me that I needed serious intervention. I hope this helps.

[tnpeach 41]

If I did not know better you were in my mind. The only thing is I did not have to wait for the insurance approval. My last clearance was for the Pulmonologist. I found out I had sleep apnea and had to go back for a saturation study. My surgeon's office took the diagnosis and prior to lung clearance and sent to insurance. I had a call from Dr office saying it had been approved. I did not even know they had sent it the insurance co (United). My date is June 18. I am feeling everything you said. I did get my clearance.

Now it feels everything is moving in fast motion. I am so ready for a positive change and feeling better health wise is a major plus. This is the best thing.

[Bobby46 327]

Brooklyngirl,

First off....Tuesday! Wow! So exciting for you! I hope it goes very smooth and youre back with your family quickly and feeling fantastic! I will be thinking about you next week!

Secondly.... I am absolutely not able to stop myself. Its a harsh reality, isn't it? I have faced that many times just trying to prepare myself for this surgery. I am a single mom (the fullest definition) of a 12 yr old boy. I have tried to drink Protein shakes while he eats the dinner I made for him. Extremely difficult! See, I own my own house, I take care of all house and home business. Everything from yard work to dishes and everything in between. I work 40 - 50hrs a week to do it. I am woman hear me roar!! I feel very strong, very in control. But...I cant stop myself from eating too much. I cant control myself around sweets. I just cant. And...it makes all the other things I do seem meager. Eating, and my weight because of it, is my biggest challenge and my biggest shame. I cant control it and it ticks me off! So, I know I need this surgery. I am just scared at times and petrified at others. ugh! I'm determined to change it. Very determined!

[Mississippi Girl 124]

Go for it. You will never regret it. I had mine done March 10th. I'm already feeling like a million bucks. I have so much energy. I go places now. I am not just watching the world go by. The main thing is to do it for you! You deserve good health and happiness.

Happy Losing,

Mississippi Girl

[Bobby46 327]

tnpeach,

I am so glad we're not alone!

[Cupcake 801]

Your thoughts are normal stay focus you are making the choice to be healthy you got this take one day at a time your worth it as well as your health good luck to you all .