update...why I vanished (long)

[*Misty*Raine* 192]

So as many of you know, I am waiting on RNY gastric bypass. In the meantime alot has happened. I have started my journey as of Jan 13. I found out that switching from Caresource to Molina insurance... I am eligible to have my program cut from 9mos to 6mos. Yay! 3 months sooner. I'm so ready for it. We are submitting in june for approval.

In the meantime... my life is a chaotic hell. Many of u know I have been going thru a divorce. Im ok with that. That was my decision. Now I just wish he would find a hobby other than buggin the heck outta me! He calls 50+times a day. Hes driving me up a wall. He wont move on and keeps calling me telling me he loves me and misses me...blah blah blah. But the reality of this is he doesnt miss me...he misses.me supporting his sorry butt. Thats all he misses. Nothing more.

As tho this isnt stressful enough... on March 17th...I got the phone call that my mom (who lives in wv...I live in ohio 2 hrs away) was found slumped over...blue...and unresponsive at her desk at home. So they called a squad and had take. her to the local ER. Ok fine. I go down scared to death of losing my mom. she was intubated and put on full life support in their ICU unit.

After a week of watching a bunch of moron drs that honeslty made me ask one dr..."how the hell he even got a license?" I had decided to transfer her to OHIO State University Hospital in the MICU unit. Shes been there for 2.5weeks. She had pneumonia and a copd exacerbation. She was also in kidney failure. So 3weeks later...she now has been placed with a trach on a ventilator. ..full life support and feeding tubes. So on 4/2/14, the drs have said they have done all they can do. And sent her to a "rehabilitation hosp." Up here it s a division of the nurising home with hospice. So that being said...we are just in the waiting to pass phase. my heart is broken and I am a total hot ass mess.

I know u are never ready to lose a parent... but I have made peace with whats to come. Im ok with it. It still hurts... but I know shes too sick to keep fighting. Please just say a prayer for me. And for my mother..Kimberly. Thank for all ur love and support.

[Pepper123 320]

Oh dear…my heart is breaking for u..be strong….

[chanc 5]

That must be terrifying. You and your mom will be in our prayers. Take care of yourself, and best wishes for your mom. Oh, and 'Woot' on the 3 months you shaved off!!

[sillyolme1 19]

Sooo sorry hon..i understand all about life getting in the way....this is such a difficult time for you....talk to your dr...whats hus ger requirements to have surgery..2 week..1 week pre op diet...do they want you to lose 25 lbs first bf preop diet? Try to stay focused....eat ice chips and drink Water instead of munchies....best wishes darling

[Cupcake 801]

I am truly sorry about your mom health, and additional stress keep your head up Im sending prayers and encouragement to you and your entire family.

[SugarFreeMe 293]

Misty, my heart breaks for you. Between Feb-2010 and Jan-2013 I lost my dad, step-mom, brother-in-law, brother, mom and step-dad. Everything from heart disease, cancer, pneumonia and suicide. It was a really rough time and I even though some of the passing's were imminent and we had time to try to come to grips with them, they still hurt deep. I don't think any amount of time to try to come to terms with the situation truly prepares you. Just know that we're all here for you to support, console and help in any way we can. Be strong, but don't be afraid to ask for help. You're in my thought and prayers and I hope from the bottom of my heart that your mom's passing is peaceful, quiet and pain free. Hugs to you.

[*Misty*Raine* 192]

Thank you all for the amazingly wonderful support u all give me and my family. I am really struggling with this and it has gotten the best of me from time to time. I am doing alot of time at the hospital and I'm learning to eat on the run. I just wanted to let someone know I'm still alive and working at this... just hit a few bumps in the road. I just gotta stay focused in a chaotic time.

[*Misty*Raine* 192]

Sooo sorry hon..i understand all about life getting in the way....this is such a difficult time for you....talk to your dr...whats hus ger requirements to have surgery..2 week..1 week pre op diet...do they want you to lose 25 lbs first bf preop diet? Try to stay focused....eat ice chips and drink Water instead of munchies....best wishes darling

These are great ideas. As for his requirements. . I just have to do a diet for 2 weeks...and dont need to lose a certain amout...just gotta shrink the liver. Lol.. hes got a very strict diet for me to follow. But that comes in june. After we submit.

[iamsoworthit 430]

So as many of you know, I am waiting on RNY gastric bypass. In the meantime alot has happened. I have started my journey as of Jan 13. I found out that switching from Caresource to Molina insurance... I am eligible to have my program cut from 9mos to 6mos. Yay! 3 months sooner. I'm so ready for it. We are submitting in june for approval.

In the meantime... my life is a chaotic hell. Many of u know I have been going thru a divorce. Im ok with that. That was my decision. Now I just wish he would find a hobby other than buggin the heck outta me! He calls 50+times a day. Hes driving me up a wall. He wont move on and keeps calling me telling me he loves me and misses me...blah blah blah. But the reality of this is he doesnt miss me...he misses.me supporting his sorry butt. Thats all he misses. Nothing more.

As tho this isnt stressful enough... on March 17th...I got the phone call that my mom (who lives in wv...I live in ohio 2 hrs away) was found slumped over...blue...and unresponsive at her desk at home. So they called a squad and had take. her to the local ER. Ok fine. I go down scared to death of losing my mom. she was intubated and put on full life support in their ICU unit.

After a week of watching a bunch of moron drs that honeslty made me ask one dr..."how the hell he even got a license?" I had decided to transfer her to OHIO State University Hospital in the MICU unit. Shes been there for 2.5weeks. She had pneumonia and a copd exacerbation. She was also in kidney failure. So 3weeks later...she now has been placed with a trach on a ventilator. ..full life support and feeding tubes. So on 4/2/14, the drs have said they have done all they can do. And sent her to a "rehabilitation hosp." Up here it s a division of the nurising home with hospice. So that being said...we are just in the waiting to pass phase. my heart is broken and I am a total hot ass mess.

I know u are never ready to lose a parent... but I have made peace with whats to come. Im ok with it. It still hurts... but I know shes too sick to keep fighting. Please just say a prayer for me. And for my mother..Kimberly. Thank for all ur love and support.

I will say a prayer for you and your mom. I just went through this and lost ny mom 2 weeks ago. She was between the hospital and regab 7 times, coming hone with hospice on a tuesday and passing the next day. It was horrible, devastating and I can't tell you it gets easier but I am almost three weeks out now and there are less tears and more happy thoughts. I am sending u a big hug because having just gone thru this I know your pain. I saw my psychologist on thursday and she put it in perspective it is like post traumatic stress disorder. I work in healthcare and have for oover 20 years, but never experienced it from that side. There are good people and bad but hopefully your mom gets the best.

Hugs!!!!

[Tgarden 76]

I am so sorry for all that has happened! I will pray for comfort for your mother, and for peace and love for you. In all that is happening, try not to lose hope. Blessings to you!