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[Ariella 73]

I would really just like to enjoy a meal. No matter what I do there is always a moment in eating where I am uncomfortable. I just ant to enjoy food again. It feels like a chore everytime I eat and right now I just feel bad about that and I am trying not to cry. It makes me not wat to try to eat at work, I just want to go home and sleep now. UGH

[Niterd 12]

I feel the same way. I feel like I will never actually enjoy what I eat ever again. I eat because I have to. Maybe that's where I need to be, but honestly I am not sure. I cook for a living, so I just eat vicariously through my clients.

[Terri Lynn1383837796 139]

I felt the same way early on. Now, I feel satisfied when I eat and move on to something else to do. I eat to live now and it's a great feeling! It will get better when you get "settled in" with your sleeve. Right now, you and the sleeve are still strangers! (so to speak) You will be fine! Best to you!

[PdxMan 4,292]

I would really just like to enjoy a meal. No matter what I do there is always a moment in eating where I am uncomfortable. I just ant to enjoy food again. It feels like a chore everytime I eat and right now I just feel bad about that and I am trying not to cry. It makes me not wat to try to eat at work, I just want to go home and sleep now. UGH

I feel the same way. I feel like I will never actually enjoy what I eat ever again. I eat because I have to. Maybe that's where I need to be, but honestly I am not sure. I cook for a living, so I just eat vicariously through my clients.

You two are soooo early in the process. I hope you did a lot of reading on here or other bariatric sites. I'm sure you did, so you know the first month or so is the hardest. There are times you think you are never going to eat "normal" again. You begin to question your decision to have WLS.

I know the feeling. But like Terri says, things will settle in. Everything around eating is different now and I wouldn't have it any other way. The way I abused food was killing me and I needed to make a fundamental, permanent change with my relationship with food. The sleeve allows me to continue to work on this relationship and adopt new habits and methods of feeding my body.

One of the hardest parts for me was coping when my usual triggers for abusing food were fired, but I wasn't able to abuse food the way I could. I mourned the loss of my old habits and questioned everything. But, as they say, this too shall pass. It gave me time to reflect on why I wanted to abuse food the way I had. Why was I mourning NOT being able to eat the way I had? Wasn't these the reasons why I was morbidly obese? Was I really wanting to return to the same old habits?

No ... I had to make a change. It meant a lot of changes for me and now, over 2 and half years post and maintaining at goal, I am so happy that I don't have to be a prisoner to food anymore.

Just keep following your guidelines and know that this is your time. Find your triggers and know why you are mourning not being able to abuse food the way you had. Adopt new habits. Eat slower, take smaller bites, don't eat to the point of being "full".

Good luck and keep us all updated.

[Ariella 73]

Dont get me wrong, I am more than happy with the restriction and the results I am seeing already. I also wasnt talking about eating a pizza. I'm talking about eating the amount given to me by my NUT and obviously healthy Protein. I am not mourning binge eating, I would just like to sit down to eat (because I need to eat to live) and enjoy what I am putting in my mouth instead of feeling like it's a termendous chore.

I know it's early on, it was just frustrating me and I felt like venting. Thats all. Thanks for the responses.

[alwaysonadiet 47]

I would like to be able to drink a bottle of Water like I used to - to hydrate myself. Drinking just one ounce is painful.