Lost a very good friend

[lynn2win 142]

Hello my fellow pals (Just need support thanks in advance)

Yesterday I lost a very good friend.... rarely do you find a friend that you can laugh with all the time and enjoy talking to everyday. She started off New Years In the hospital very sick...(won't go into details of her illness) but when she called me I didn't want to treat her any different the only thing I wanted to do was try to make her laugh...but unfortunately it seem that laughter was no more..I received news that she was back in the hospital the third time....when I talk to her over a week ago we only briefly discussed things at work. I still cry and I believe last night in my room when I saw what look like a twinkle in the corner of my bedroom it was her letting me know she will be their and all I have to do is still talk to her...as I am writing this I am crying because I will miss my BEST FRIEND! When I was sad she cheered me up when I was stressed she told me it would be ok....I have no idea where I will find another friend. I don't use the word Friend loosely...I have only 3 good friends including my mom...So I decided that one day I will put out applications for a new BEST FRIEND but for now I will just enjoy our memories. I have one less person to share my days with and I hope that I will laugh again. BYE MY FRIEND I MISS U~

Edited March 1, 2014 by lynn2win

[ChristmasJanet 74]

Lynn2win. I am so sorry for the loss of you're friend. Sending (((HUGS))) and prayers your way!

[missdixie2000 66]

So so sorry about your loss . I will pray for The Lord to give you peace and comfort.

[Domika03 309]

Very sorry for your loss. Hold on to those awesome memories!

[1Day1Life4Now 882]

lynn2win, Sending hugs in your time of sorrow. I understand all those feelings of loss as I went through something very similar when I lost my best friend to breast cancer. It takes a long time for that pain to ease but the one thing I know is that you were so lucky to have a friend that you felt so close to. Those types of relationships are rare and not something everyone gets to experience. Count yourself lucky. Keep those memories close to your heart and she will always be with you. I hope you will be okay.

[SugarFreeMe 293]

Lynn, I'm so sorry for your loss. Loosing anyone is aweful but your best friend, I can't even imagine. Know that she's still with you in your heart and she'll always be cheering for you from above.

[lynn2win 142]

I really appreciate all the love...as we get older it is hardier to find true friends....I hope to one day find another friend that I can trust and one that I can open up to....I am reading a book by Rick Warren and it is teaching me to not say why but what is this teaching me....and this teaches me life is too short and I knew what I had and now its gone

[able2cope 193]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, sending you lots of hugs x

[CurvyCakes 269]

<p>Hello my fellow pals (Just need support thanks in advance)</p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p>Yesterday I lost a very good friend.... rarely do you find a friend that you can laugh with all the time and enjoy talking to everyday. She started off New Years In the hospital very sick...(won't go into details of her illness) but when she called me I didn't want to treat her any different the only thing I wanted to do was try to make her laugh...but unfortunately it seem that laughter was no more..I received news that she was back in the hospital the third time....when I talk to her over a week ago we only briefly discussed things at work. I still cry and I believe last night in my room when I saw what look like a twinkle in the corner of my bedroom it was her letting me know she will be their and all I have to do is still talk to her...as I am writing this I am crying because I will miss my BEST FRIEND! When I was sad she cheered me up when I was stressed she told me it would be ok....I have no idea where I will find another friend. I don't use the word Friend loosely...I have only 3 good friends including my mom...So I decided that one day I will put out applications for a new BEST FRIEND but for now I will just enjoy our memories. I have one less person to share my days with and I hope that I will laugh again. BYE MY FRIEND I MISS U~</p>

Lynn my heart goes out to u! I couldn't imagine losing my bestie but God carries us through difficult situations that we r unable to walk through on our own. I will be lifting u up in prayer that u r comforted during this time of such a great loss. Sending a huge bear huge ur way chica!

[BabySheldon 158]

She sounds like a wonderful lady that will be dearly missed. Im so, so sorry...

Shel

[Lil'NewME!! 4]

Lynn - I know what you are going through. I lost my best friend in November. We had 45 wonderful years of friendship. I miss her every day. She was supposed to be here to help me after my surgery (I don't have a date yet).

I believe that twinkle was your friend--I know mine is with me every day. Let me know when you're ready for a new friend--I will apply!

Sending hugs and prayers your way!

[lynn2win 142]

Thanks everyone for the kind words...I haven't been on here for awhile...her funeral was on Wedes and I went to the wake and barely made it 30mins without sobbing..I gave her husband and 2 sons and hug and left and cried in the car...I left and went to my truck and looked up and told her I made it I made it...At one point I didn't want to go and when I got close to the casket I refused to look in because I refused to believe she is gone....later that day when I was out I went to call her and was like oh gosh she isn't here anymore...and when things happen at work I say I about to call her and then I reach for the phone and realize I can't tell her in person what is going on...GOSH I MISS HER SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH...I hate to say this but I can't wait till I get to the point that I am only crying once aday instead of numerous of times a day....I hadn't told her about my journey to WLS because I didn't have my appt until after she got sick and it didn't seem like the right time to say anything...I just believe she would make it!!!!!! LIl New ME..of course I will take app's just so that you know I am the baby of the family and she was the oldest of her family so we worked real well together....THANKS EVERYONE I still cry everyday but one day I will smile

[1Day1Life4Now 882]

Lynn, I had tears rolling down my face when I read your post. I did the exact same thing when my best friend passed away from breast cancer. It changed my life forever. Our husbands were best friends, our kids were best friends, we went to church together, we celebrated holidays together....then she died and everything changed. I was in denial when she got sick and was in shock when she died... it took so long to find a sense of normalcy again but it did come eventually with time. Yeah, you are going to miss her a lot and that empty hole in your heart is going to seem so vast but through the grief process you will learn to fill that hole with new relationships and new experiences. That doesn't mean you will ever forget her...you will keep her with you forever but you will become more open to other friendships. It is so wonderful to have a friend in life that you have been able to love so deeply...many people never get that opportunity. It will get better with time but in the meantime...it is perfectly okay to cry. Keep talking to her because I bet she still hears you. Sending you healing hugs {{{{{ Lynn}}}}} Take care, Janet

[lynn2win 142]

Thanks Janet I do still try to talk to her...I was driving to work yesterday and I have been saying please send me a sign your out their and then I was driving and said send me a sign( but actually from a song) and a big flew right in front of my car and then when I turned the corner a bird flew again....yes I still cry multiple times a day and I asked her to send me a good friend and also great husband to marry....I wish she was still here I have no one to go to for advice,,,even though she was older than I...she was still my best buddy.... I need to get motivated and get out of the house I just work and come home and lay in my bed...Thanks again everyone

Lynn, I had tears rolling down my face when I read your post. I did the exact same thing when my best friend passed away from breast cancer. It changed my life forever. Our husbands were best friends, our kids were best friends, we went to church together, we celebrated holidays together....then she died and everything changed. I was in denial when she got sick and was in shock when she died... it took so long to find a sense of normalcy again but it did come eventually with time. Yeah, you are going to miss her a lot and that empty hole in your heart is going to seem so vast but through the grief process you will learn to fill that hole with new relationships and new experiences. That doesn't mean you will ever forget her...you will keep her with you forever but you will become more open to other friendships. It is so wonderful to have a friend in life that you have been able to love so deeply...many people never get that opportunity. It will get better with time but in the meantime...it is perfectly okay to cry. Keep talking to her because I bet she still hears you. Sending you healing hugs {{{{{ Lynn}}}}} Take care, Janet