My deep thought for the day

[PurpleDiosa 13]

So, I still do not have a date yet, still going through the doctor's appts and such, but as I was reading through all these posts, and after having a full on grazing day yesterday (after being good all week - damn that superbowl), I had a deep thought this morning:

Why am I freaking out about not being able to eat certain foods again, or having problems with certain foods??? Aren't those the foods that helped me get to the 280 I'm at right now??? I need to wrap my head around the fact that this is LIFE CHANGING - the life I am currently living is NOT HEALTHY, and this surgery will be the kick in the behind to MAKE me make the move to a healthier life - without the option to fall back on my cheating ways a week into it. Hopefully, down the line, after I've LEARNED a healthier lifestyle by forcing this onto my body, I won't have the cheating urges I have now.

I can be hopeful, right? Because I want to be the healthy slim fit person I see in my head, not the tired, painful, overweight person I see in the mirror.

[Teachamy 1,042]

Yes, the sleeve definitely helps. But the cheating urges don't disappear--this is as much about your head as your stomach. I once saw someone post on here that they could still eat a large pizza all by themselves, but it would now take them 12 hours instead of one. In addition to learning and loving a new and healthier lifestyle, we all need to prepare ourselves for why we eat the way we do. It is an addiction, and even with the sleeve, I have to be very mindful of everything I do and every emotion I feel. I am definitely a food addict. So I watch for my triggers to keep myself on track.

Good luck to you!

[PurpleDiosa 13]

Thank you, and that's VERY true - this is a mind game, and I completely get that - I'm hoping that this will help me teach my mind that there is a healthier way to live.

[Teachamy 1,042]

You will!