Just a few more weeks

[Karen Watkins 0]

So I am a patient of Centennial Medical Center's Obesity Center in Nashville, TN and Im just a few weeks away from surgery. My surgeon is Dr. Douglas Olsen. My last consult was this past Thursday, January the 23rd, 2014. My emotions about this whole process is slowly changing. I had been experiencing a lot of severe anxiety in the weeks prior and having morbid thoughts of death and regret. I would think about dying and who would take care of my kids, but have learned to transition my thoughts into positive ones. I know that this is life changing and am excited about that, but also worried how it will change the dynamics of the personal relationships that I have with people, as well as social ones. Now that Im just waiting for a phone call saying that I am approved, it has all become real. Sometimes I wake up and I almost feel as though this is a dream. My whole life obesity has been my worst enemy and I have prayed countless numbers of times to God and asked for help. I've been much smaller in my lifetime and I know what a nasty toll it takes on your life to become very obese, but I also remember how great it was to be 100 lbs smaller. Confidence, attitude, energy, spirituality, and your life all around is in a dark fog when you are obese. That person you want to be is inside of you but it's difficult to express that when you're disgusted with what you've become. I have 100% assurance that the Lord is on my side for this. I would like to think it's an answer to my prayers. As the months go on I will keep everybody updated on my progress and include not only physical changes, but psychological ones, as well. Thanks for reading!

[smokenhaze 9]

How far along are you on your journey, did you have a six month requirement for surgery? I am fourth months in a six month program and I have loss at least 20lbs and several inches. Today I had a meeting today for work in the tiny auditorium. Little chair and I used to not even be able to fit fully in the chair...couldn't sit all the way back. Well, this morning I was able to squeeze in and fit. It was tight but I fit! Its little victories like that, that help you keep on going. I haven't gotten the surgery yet, but im very anixous. Don't think about you changign dramatically, just think on the little person inside who will slowly come out of her shell. Have a good grasp on who you are mentally, and positivity will come easier.