Starting to feel some slight depression....(Pity Party)

[BabySheldon 158]

Welcome to my Pity Party:

I cant seem to ever feel well consistently. My whole life revolves around this sleeve and the misery its causing me on most days. Every time I eat, I have to 'hold my breath' to see if she is going to tolerate the food or become irritated.

My sleeve doesn't like to be full, empty or left alone. I can always 'feel' her presence.

I am struggling desperately to get hydrated. My kidneys are starting to be affected and at 1 month post op, i still cannot come close to 64oz a day.

I am now severely whey, milk and dairy intolerant. I have not come anywhere close to my Protein goals. I went on Amazon.com and purchased some vegetable protein...it has not arrived yet.

I have zero energy...and with a high powered job, the two just don't mix.

I am terrified to take any of my medicines or my Vitamins because I'm scared to death of how this sleeve will react and continue to make me suffer.

All I want is to feel better and make my milestones.....I am really starting to regret this....I'm not certain the pounds lost are worth it....

I know 'I' am the only one who can fix this....but I feel sooooo defeated right now : - (

Shameful Shelby

[SuperFab 689]

Welcome to my Pity Party: I cant seem to ever feel well consistently. My whole life revolves around this sleeve and the misery its causing me on most days. Every time I eat, I have to 'hold my breath' to see if she is going to tolerate the food or become irritated. My sleeve doesn't like to be full, empty or left alone. I can always 'feel' her presence. I am struggling desperately to get hydrated. My kidneys are starting to be affected and at 1 month post op, i still cannot come close to 64oz a day. I am now severely whey, milk and dairy intolerant. I have not come anywhere close to my Protein goals. I went on Amazon.com and purchased some vegetable protein...it has not arrived yet. I have zero energy...and with a high powered job, the two just don't mix. I am terrified to take any of my medicines or my Vitamins because I'm scared to death of how this sleeve will react and continue to make me suffer. All I want is to feel better and make my milestones.....I am really starting to regret this....I'm not certain the pounds lost are worth it.... I know 'I' am the only one who can fix this....but I feel sooooo defeated right now : - ( Shameful Shelby

Reading this made me just wanna reach out and give you a hug. I know you're suffering and you have such a temperamental sleeve. I'm so sorry. Hang in there the best you can. Maybe some of the vets will have suggestions for you to eat or drink.

[gomekast 559]

Oh shel....you're so not alone! I'm 3 months out and cant hit 64 oz liquids a day. No way. But using calorie free sugar free propel zero I can hit 48 oz.

I'm a pt caretaker at a large apt complex. .and I struggle daily since having my surgery back in October. My hubby still has to help me clean Apts and shovel when he is home. Something I didnt think would still be happening at this stage in the game.

Yesterday I had excruciating pain from my pcos and I felt that small twinge of...maybe I may regret this whole thing for this second. .but then I did what all the vets here have said time and time again...listen to your body/listen to your sleeve. I napped all afternoon, and kept my bathroom toilet paper roll going on overtime. Felt like a new person.

I don't have the answer...but I was feeling that way yesterday.

Today, ...I was pi$$ed off that I've been stalled for 9 days. Its my longest stall since October 22nd.

I am waiting for the clouds to clear up..I want to feel as good as losing 70 should feel. But I'm not there just yet.

I should also add this....I've got a slight stricture. So my sleeve is really just as temperamental. Sucks.

Edited January 24, 2014 by gomekast

[BabySheldon 158]

Reading this made me just wanna reach out and give you a hug. I know you're suffering and you have such a temperamental sleeve. I'm so sorry. Hang in there the best you can. Maybe some of the vets will have suggestions for you to eat or drink.

Thank you....hugs are so welcome tonight ...

Shel

[BabySheldon 158]

Oh shel....you're so not alone! I'm 3 months out and cant hit 64 oz liquids a day. No way. But using calorie free sugar free propel zero I can hit 48 oz. I'm a pt caretaker at a large apt complex. .and I struggle daily since having my surgery back in October. My hubby still has to help me clean Apts and shovel when he is home. Something I didnt think would still be happening at this stage in the game. Yesterday I had excruciating pain from my pcos and I felt that small twinge of...maybe I may regret this whole thing for this second. .but then I did what all the vets here have said time and time again...listen to your body/listen to your sleeve. I napped all afternoon, and kept my bathroom toilet paper roll going on overtime. Felt like a new person. I don't have the answer...but I was feeling that way yesterday. Today, ...I was pi$$ed off that I've been stalled for 9 days. Its my longest stall since October 22nd. I am waiting for the clouds to clear up..I want to feel as good as losing 70 should feel. But I'm not there just yet. I should also add this....I've got a slight stricture. So my sleeve is really just as temperamental. Sucks.

Thank you so much for understanding....I have been following you and I know its been tough for you....i just want to feel better....i know you can relate...

Shel

[sleevinIT 88]

Well at just a little over a month out as well and I definitely feel your pain...I have no tolerance for milk or anything of the sort.... one day I had some milk and that night I was in so much pain I thought I was gonna die. It woke me up several times that I went to my surgeon the nxt day because I thought I might have had a leak...I was scared to eat anything but it was a false alarm...also I am not loosing anything...I cut out carbs and all the tgings I slowly added to my diet after lik 3 weeks post op and im stuck at 220.....well atleast thats what my scale says.. at the doc in 228...so something isnt right if im 228 that will mean I only lost 9lbs since surgery day...and thats a major problem...im so stressed sometimes...its so hard to deal...I probably really should have thoughg long and hard about this ill never be the same again... it bothers me sometime... im hoping for my 19th bday I hit the 100 mark..I started at 252 so if I could b 152 ill b so feggin happy!!

[mamato2 21]

Welcome to my Pity Party:<br><br> I cant seem to ever feel well consistently. My whole life revolves around this sleeve and the misery its causing me on most days. Every time I eat, I have to 'hold my breath' to see if she is going to tolerate the food or become irritated. <br><br> My sleeve doesn't like to be full, empty or left alone. I can always 'feel' her presence. <br><br> I am struggling desperately to get hydrated. My kidneys are starting to be affected and at 1 month post op, i still cannot come close to 64oz a day.<br><br> I am now severely whey, milk and dairy intolerant. I have not come anywhere close to my Protein goals. I went on Amazon.com and purchased some vegetable protein...it has not arrived yet. <br><br> I have zero energy...and with a high powered job, the two just don't mix.<br><br> I am terrified to take any of my medicines or my Vitamins because I'm scared to death of how this sleeve will react and continue to make me suffer.<br><br> All I want is to feel better and make my milestones.....I am really starting to regret this....I'm not certain the pounds lost are worth it.... <br><br> I know 'I' am the only one who can fix this....but I feel sooooo defeated right now : - (<br><br><br> Shameful Shelby

Oh my word you just took every word out of my mouth I am desperately trying to get out of this funk! It's miserable! I'm feeling totally worthless I didn't do this without surgery and now want to undue it and know you can't I feel like my social

Life revolved around some type of food settings and get jealous when I see people eat whatever they want!

I'm waiting for 3 week post op to get what I really need for Protein intake as of now I'm getting 5 grams because the Protein shakes make me throw up I've tried 5 different kinds and can't do it! I don't drink 64 oz of Water a say maybe 30 it's been difficult and I just can't get over why I thought this would answer all my problems let me now when you start to feeling better!

[gomekast 559]

Oh my word you just took every word out of my mouth I am desperately trying to get out of this funk! It's miserable! I'm feeling totally worthless I didn't do this without surgery and now want to undue it and know you can't I feel like my social

Life revolved around some type of food settings and get jealous when I see people eat whatever they want!

I'm waiting for 3 week post op to get what I really need for Protein intake as of now I'm getting 5 grams because the Protein shakes make me throw up I've tried 5 different kinds and can't do it! I don't drink 64 oz of Water a say maybe 30 it's been difficult and I just can't get over why I thought this would answer all my problems let me now when you start to feeling better!

At the very beginning its so common to not hit any goals at all. My nurses had told me to focus just on staying hydrated. The rest would come once I consistently did that. Still wasn't easy tho. But you'll soon turn the corner and feel so much better!

I'm 3.5 months post op and the only way I hit Water goals is from calorie/sugar free propel zero. So experiment with the calorie free sugar free beverages and find what works for you.

This journey isn't for the faint of heart. Its the hardest thing we will ever do for ourselves!

[mamato2 21]

Oh my word you just took every word out of my mouth I am desperately trying to get out of this funk! It's miserable! I'm feeling totally worthless I didn't do this without surgery and now want to undue it and know you can't I feel like my social

Life revolved around some type of food settings and get jealous when I see people eat whatever they want!

I'm waiting for 3 week post op to get what I really need for Protein intake as of now I'm getting 5 grams because the Protein shakes make me throw up I've tried 5 different kinds and can't do it! I don't drink 64 oz of Water a say maybe 30 it's been difficult and I just can't get over why I thought this would answer all my problems let me now when you start to feeling better!

At the very beginning its so common to not hit any goals at all. My nurses had told me to focus just on staying hydrated. The rest would come once I consistently did that. Still wasn't easy tho. But you'll soon turn the corner and feel so much better!

I'm 3.5 months post op and the only way I hit Water goals is from calorie/sugar free propel zero. So experiment with the calorie free sugar free beverages and find what works for you.

This journey isn't for the faint of heart. Its the hardest thing we will ever do for ourselves!

That's so true! Having this forum sure helps when I feel alone! What is a stricture?

[BabySheldon 158]

Well at just a little over a month out as well and I definitely feel your pain...I have no tolerance for milk or anything of the sort.... one day I had some milk and that night I was in so much pain I thought I was gonna die. It woke me up several times that I went to my surgeon the nxt day because I thought I might have had a leak...I was scared to eat anything but it was a false alarm...also I am not loosing anything...I cut out carbs and all the tgings I slowly added to my diet after lik 3 weeks post op and im stuck at 220.....well atleast thats what my scale says.. at the doc in 228...so something isnt right if im 228 that will mean I only lost 9lbs since surgery day...and thats a major problem...im so stressed sometimes...its so hard to deal...I probably really should have thoughg long and hard about this ill never be the same again... it bothers me sometime... im hoping for my 19th bday I hit the 100 mark..I started at 252 so if I could b 152 ill b so feggin happy!!

Girl thank you for understanding sometimes people don't realize what a dramatic change this can be ....it's a whole change to our entire lives and it's awful and it can make you miserable for a long time ....I really can empathize with the stalls that you're having and the disappointment in the numbers.... we just have to keep plugging along ....we've done the deal and now we have to deal with what we've done ....I think you'll make it to you goal...we will get there by hook or crook, together :-)

Shelby

[BabySheldon 158]

Oh my word you just took every word out of my mouth I am desperately trying to get out of this funk! It's miserable! I'm feeling totally worthless I didn't do this without surgery and now want to undue it and know you can't I feel like my social Life revolved around some type of food settings and get jealous when I see people eat whatever they want! I'm waiting for 3 week post op to get what I really need for Protein intake as of now I'm getting 5 grams because the Protein Shakes make me throw up I've tried 5 different kinds and can't do it! I don't drink 64 oz of Water a say maybe 30 it's been difficult and I just can't get over why I thought this would answer all my problems let me now when you start to feeling better!

My thoughts exactly! you and me both ....reading your post made me not feel nearly as alone as I have been feeling..... I hate the Protein shakes and they make my stomach all upset .....they are disgusting and I'm intolerant of them....I'm intolerant of the whey protein .....I'm intolerant of milk and intolerant of cheese..... I did not have this problem before the surgery and it's so disappointing ,so I'm with you ..... I try to get my fluids in but nowhere near 64 ounces per day ....my nurse is like a Gestapo ......she keeps making demands of me and is completely unsympathetic to the struggle..... I know she's just trying to do the right thing but it makes the journey even tougher....we will have to stick together and hang in there together...we are both fighters and i know we will come through...

Shel

[ElyQuint 446]

Hi guys. Six months out and 73 pounds down. It gets better. Much better. It becomes a tool and not a warden. Nobody ever meets the Water goal, ever. Just keep drinking.

[BabySheldon 158]

Hi guys. Six months out and 73 pounds down. It gets better. Much better. It becomes a tool and not a warden. Nobody ever meets the Water goal, ever. Just keep drinking.

Thank you for saying that....it does feel like a warden at times....great word choice!

Shel

[mamato2 21]

Oh my word you just took every word out of my mouth I am desperately trying to get out of this funk! It's miserable! I'm feeling totally worthless I didn't do this without surgery and now want to undue it and know you can't I feel like my social Life revolved around some type of food settings and get jealous when I see people eat whatever they want! I'm waiting for 3 week post op to get what I really need for Protein intake as of now I'm getting 5 grams because the Protein Shakes make me throw up I've tried 5 different kinds and can't do it! I don't drink 64 oz of Water a say maybe 30 it's been difficult and I just can't get over why I thought this would answer all my problems let me now when you start to feeling better!

My thoughts exactly! you and me both ....reading your post made me not feel nearly as alone as I have been feeling..... I hate the Protein shakes and they make my stomach all upset .....they are disgusting and I'm intolerant of them....I'm intolerant of the whey protein .....I'm intolerant of milk and intolerant of cheese..... I did not have this problem before the surgery and it's so disappointing ,so I'm with you ..... I try to get my fluids in but nowhere near 64 ounces per day ....my nurse is like a Gestapo ......she keeps making demands of me and is completely unsympathetic to the struggle..... I know she's just trying to do the right thing but it makes the journey even tougher....we will have to stick together and hang in there together...we are both fighters and i know we will come through...

Shel

Yes I agree 3 days and counting till I can have cheese will let you know how I tolerate it! My body feels like it doesn't even want or crave anything now keep me updated! It's gotta get better, right?

[pat fitz 44]

Hey Shelby. I am 4 weeks post-op. I am doing very well. Right after surgery and the 1st week out I was really struggling. When I went to see the team. I told them I felt like I was going to puke all the time. Well they forgot 2 meds when I left hospital. Carafate helps with healing of tummy and staple line. Also I am on omeprazole for 3 months. Controls stomach acid. These 2 things helped me 100% I just started Protein in regular consistency. Actually had 4 bites of a burger today. Did you or are you taking either of these items? Hope things get better for you. Stay positive. Lots of support on this site.