Not going to listen to that voice anymore.

[CrazyJaney 775]

The all or nothing thinking is my biggest foe. Tonight, after a hard, kinda awful day at work I got stuck in the worst traffic (rush hour, holiday, etc). I was so thirsty. I started thinking about how my job lends itself to self abuse. I never stop to pee. I inhale my food. I run from one emergency to another. I listen to and fix other peoples problems ALL DAMN day. It's my job. I signed up for it. But I'm sitting in traffic, thinking about how I think maybe a career change is in order- how little I prioritize time, energy for myself and I start to think how thirsty I am. And how Arby's is just RIGHT there. And how one coke wouldn't hurt , and hell, while I'm being "bad" wouldn't a Beef N Cheddar taste so good after this really, really crappy day????? Like, surgery is still 3 months away - why would it hurt to have a delicious Beef N Cheedar? Right? And then I resisted. I drove past Arby's and their deliciously BAD food, and I felt the thirst. I sat it the car and thought about thirst. What it physiologically means. What it's telling my body. And I told myself "YOU CAN DO THIS". And I drove through more traffic and past many more fast food places, and I finally made it home (2hours later). And I made my dinner, scanning every content into MFP. And I survived. So I'm going to Celebrate that one small victory because that voice in my head that says "go ahead, that's not a big deal in the scheme of things" is NOT. MY. REAL. VOICE. And I'm not listening to it anymore.

The End.

PS: I don't know how I could embark on this endeavor without this safe place. Truly, thank you.

[LipstickLady 25,682]

Huge victory! You can do this, no doubt about it. Now carry a healthy snack and some Water in your car.

[JeanZ_RN 378]

WooHOOOOOO! You done GREAT!! Congratulations!

If you're caught without Water again -- which I bet you won't be after this, but anyway -- try gum or a breath mint. They can help a bit with thirst.

[nsquared 232]

I am so proud of you and you should be too! This journey is full of those kinds of moments and what you chose was great. Sometimes, you may make a different choice and that is ok too because what you did tonight proves YOU CAN DO IT! Keep making good choices for yourself.

[joatsaint 2,814]

Congrats on getting past that "voice". I hear it too. It's like a little kid pulling on my sleeve that I can't get rid of.

[CrazyJaney 775]

Congrats on getting past that "voice". I hear it too. It's like a little kid pulling on my sleeve that I can't get rid of.

Kinda liked being pecked to death by a flock of geese! Fast food is,has always been, my downfall.

[No game 14,437]

Good for you! I'm glad you took the time to truly take care of yourself

Oh yes the voice! It still talks to me sometimes.. All or nothing?

I very occasionally get wooed by the voice and fall off the wagon. But the thing that I realize now is that I don't have to have the all or nothing mentality.

If I slip up one day it's only that day and doesn't mean an all encompassing feeling of failure and giving up.

[southernsoul 773]

Good for you!! That's a really big moment when you make a new choice in response to the voice & it should definitely be celebrated. Go, you!!

[gmanbat 5,889]

The battles you win add up even if you lose a battle...fall down....get back up.....keep fighting...war won.

[Seela 1,187]

That is not a small victory, it's huge!! Good for you

[planetheather 137]

Congratulations! You have every right to be proud of yourself. I'm 3 months post op and if I could talk to my 3-month pre-op self, I would say the same things you just posted. I would also tell my pre-op self to never go anywhere without a bottle of Water in my bag and a packet of Designer whey Protein 2Go powder (my emergency snack option of choice). Find what works for you and get used to having that always (like a spare pair of reading glasses after your 40th birthday). :-)

[TheRealMeIsHere! 863]

The all or nothing thinking is my biggest foe. Tonight, after a hard, kinda awful day at work I got stuck in the worst traffic (rush hour, holiday, etc). I was so thirsty. I started thinking about how my job lends itself to self abuse. I never stop to pee. I inhale my food. I run from one emergency to another. I listen to and fix other peoples problems ALL DAMN day. It's my job. I signed up for it. But I'm sitting in traffic, thinking about how I think maybe a career change is in order- how little I prioritize time, energy for myself and I start to think how thirsty I am. And how Arby's is just RIGHT there. And how one coke wouldn't hurt , and hell, while I'm being "bad" wouldn't a Beef N Cheddar taste so good after this really, really crappy day????? Like, surgery is still 3 months away - why would it hurt to have a delicious Beef N Cheedar? Right? And then I resisted. I drove past Arby's and their deliciously BAD food, and I felt the thirst. I sat it the car and thought about thirst. What it physiologically means. What it's telling my body. And I told myself "YOU CAN DO THIS". And I drove through more traffic and past many more fast food places, and I finally made it home (2hours later). And I made my dinner, scanning every content into MFP. And I survived. So I'm going to Celebrate that one small victory because that voice in my head that says "go ahead, that's not a big deal in the scheme of things" is NOT. MY. REAL. VOICE. And I'm not listening to it anymore.

The End.

PS: I don't know how I could embark on this endeavor without this safe place. Truly, thank you.

THAT'S when you KNOW you are ready for this life changing surgery. Go Jen!!!!!