This Probably Sounds Silly But...

[Mel1071 149]

I'm scheduled for surgery on 12/16. I feel pretty comfortable with everything but there's something just eating at me (no pun intended).

I've been overweight/obese since puberty. The smallest size I remember being is a 16. I have no idea what I look like at a "normal" weight and quite frankly it's a little scary. And for some reason it's bothering me more the closer I get to surgery. The rational side of me says what you're doing is sooooo good - help with health issues, have more energy, etc. but I almost feel like I'm losing a sense if self if that makes any sense,

Just wondering if other folks felt like this

[ProudGrammy 8,322]

no idea what I look like at a "normal" weigh

In my case i never thought about how i would look

i just wanted to lower my weight, slowly but steadily

it also "crept" on me, the weight loss and change in my appearance

i was over concentrating on the scale, didn't really look at myself

one day i got out of the shower and stared in the mirror

i knew it was me - but boy oh boy

the first thing i noticed, i turned around and realized my rear end was GONE

don't worry or think too much about what you will look like as time passes

just enjoy the ride

good luck next month

kathy

[Threetimesacharm 1,400]

I will tell you that it certainly is a new journey to begin. I too have never been this thin in my entire life(just once I guess on my way up). It really is a mental adjustment to see yourself so thin and in my case wearing a size 6, I still can't believe it. I guess as time goes on it will become my new norm but I think I still feel inside like the old fat me sometimes................but I love my new thin self!! Surgery has been life changing for me and it will be for you too!!

All the best

[acubi2 33]

I too have been overweight since I was a little kid. Honestly it worried me too, and I have only lost 29lbs so far. I just think about the future and how good I am going to feel. My mom had gastric bypass in 2001, and it was weird to see her small but we all got used to it and I cannot remember her heavy so it will be hard at first but then it will fade.

[cindymg 629]

I'm scheduled for surgery on 12/16. I feel pretty comfortable with everything but there's something just eating at me (no pun intended).

I've been overweight/obese since puberty. The smallest size I remember being is a 16. I have no idea what I look like at a "normal" weight and quite frankly it's a little scary. And for some reason it's bothering me more the closer I get to surgery. The rational side of me says what you're doing is sooooo good - help with health issues, have more energy, etc. but I almost feel like I'm losing a sense if self if that makes any sense,

Just wondering if other folks felt like this

I went right from baby clothes to a misses size 14 -- then up from there. After 40 years of yo-yo dieting, even at my lowest weight, I was never under a size 14 or under 200 lbs.

Now, nearly 6 months after my sleeve surgery, I am under 200 lbs and in a size 12! And I'm staring down a size 10. It's pretty freaking scary. I don't know who is looking back at me in the mirror sometimes. 'Cause it's not like I have ever seen that person before. Some sleevers were once slim, then gained weight. But some of us were never thin, or even normal weight. So it's a whole new world for us! And it's an exciting discovery. Wouldn't trade this ride for the world.

Keep moving forward. Good luck on your journey. It's going to be amazing!

[Kornrockur 7]

My surgery is scheduled for 12/10. I know exactly how you feel. I keep thinking I am going to always have the "fat girl" mentality even when I lose the weight. We are all going through this and this page is here so we can support each other.

[jackshawk 1]

I know exactly what your all mean!! I haven't been a normal weight since middle school. I am 4 days post surgery for the sleeve and I am all ready starting to freak out at how fast I'm losing weight (16 pounds since DOS)! I don't know what it will be like to be thin. But I'm so excited to see what it is like! Thank you all for being a supportive community to talk these things through!