Anxious...Scared...Nervous...Excited

[Nurse_B 270]

I have finally heard from the surgery center, and I am all cleared for surgery. Wednesday, I am able to schedule!!! It looks like my date will fall in the first week of December. I am very excited, but also now that this is FOR SURE going to happen, I am scared for the first time. My surgery will be self pay, and although I am totally committed to this, it is a little hard to swallow the amount of money coming out of my pocket for this. I just have to keep telling myself, this is the lifestyle change and commitment I need to make, and sacrifices such as money need to be made! Please tell me spending what could be a very nice used car on this is worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel guilty, like I am being selfish with my money or something. While I don't have children, or a significant other, I still need reassurance that I am doing what is best. I know this is what I want, but I am nervous and scared.

[joatsaint 2,814]

I have finally heard from the surgery center, and I am all cleared for surgery. Wednesday, I am able to schedule!!! It looks like my date will fall in the first week of December. I am very excited, but also now that this is FOR SURE going to happen, I am scared for the first time. My surgery will be self pay, and although I am totally committed to this, it is a little hard to swallow the amount of money coming out of my pocket for this. I just have to keep telling myself, this is the lifestyle change and commitment I need to make, and sacrifices such as money need to be made! Please tell me spending what could be a very nice used car on this is worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel guilty, like I am being selfish with my money or something. While I don't have children, or a significant other, I still need reassurance that I am doing what is best. I know this is what I want, but I am nervous and scared.

Good luck with your surgery. I remember (as in, "it's burned into my brain!") the feelings I had as the surgery date approached. I found the secret is to stay in a state of denial - no kidding. I refused to let myself think about it, right up to the point where I was transferred from the gurney to the OR table.

Here's my video on my pre-op freakout. :-P

[Scorpion11 99]

I'm right with you, just confirmed my surgery date on Friday, my surgery day is Friday, 11/15

Yesterday I was an emotional wreck from excited, happy butterflies to tears. Today I'm feeling better, when I get the questionable feeling or thoughts coming back, I log in read new post and I feel I'm doing to right thing for the right reason.

All along all the appointments and clearance I felt prepared as I have been doing loa of research. Joining this site more than helped with all the same questions you are feeling.

My thought process is there's no price tag amount to gaining a healer lifestyle for the rest of your life! Yesterday I posted for ppl to share if they had any regrets with their WLS and why and everyone's responses are no regrets. Many ppl who have had their surgery state they wish they had done it sooner.

I still have all the same feeling you do and get scared but I know without doing this WLS I will not lose weight and bee this tool to keep me on track and continue to use it for the rest of my life!

Your feelings are normal, as I mentioned I haven't had it but I'm sure it's worth every penny!!

I will have to pay about $1500.00 of my pockets and not once have I thought it could be used towards something else, nothing materialistic compares to regaining my life and being healthy again.

When you feel in doubt, come back here, read up and it puts us back on track : )

[McButterpants 2,846]

I remember when I locked in my date (11/14). I was tentative up until a couple of weeks ago and I was OK when it was tentative. As soon as I put down the deposit and secured the date, that's when it became very real. I became very emotional and started second guessing my decision. If you are on this board for any length of time, you will see that it's pretty normal to have feelings of self-doubt and anxiety. This is a big decision and a big step - you should be thinking about it a lot.

But, at the end of the day, I can say, for me, this is the decision I needed to make at this juncture in my life. It's my time.

You will know what the right decision is - it will feel right to you. Trust your instincts, whatever they may be.

Best of luck to you in your journey.