Surgery in 11 days not so sure I want to do this!

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Thank You everyone for your thoughts about this. I am going to take some time to really think this over. I have been contemplating the sleeve since Jan. But like I said for some reason as the days come closer I just dont know if i can make all these changes. Im scared yes, a friend told me i was self sabotaging my self. I dont know! I have been overweight since a young teenager and have tried over and over again to change. I have lost weight with programs but then a few months later it all comes back. I do not have co morbidities, but I also dont want to have any in the future because of my weight. I feel like if i dont take this stand and push myself to do this and get my mind right then i will be giving up and then i really will tell my self F*** this im going to do nothing but eat. I know what it really comes down to is being strong and not letting the food win. I want to become a better happier person who goes to my kids functions goes to gatherings and such and not be worried about if people are thinking im fat. I want to be that flower that never bloomed because of this dam weight! Thank you all for listening!