BOY DID I FEEL STUPID

[TEXAS DIVA 10]

I just wanted to share a little story with you all about binging and purging. I always knew that I was an emotional eater. Anytime I would get upset, I would eat. Well, recently, I got upset over something.. now realizing it was stupid, but, the first thing that came to my mind was to eat to feel better. Ok, no problem, I needed some food anyway. Well, I go into Subway and order the 6 inch sandwich that I used order pre-plication. All the while in line, Im thinking of the situation that has me so upset. Im also thinking, once I bite into this sandwhich I will feel soo much better. Yess, All I need is to eat. Well, like I said, I order the same huge 6 inch like I used to order like back in the day. I sat down, didnt count my chews, had the nerve to eat the sandwhich and drink the raspberry tea at the same time. Oh, I was getting down like in the old days, just actin a fool! Well, 4 bites in, I am hit with such a stomach pain! THen, I have to run outside and toss up. I hate tossing Cookies and I havent had to since month 2 post op. I felt gross and mostly STUPID! How could I have forgotten that my poor stomach is totally in control? So, instantly, I realized, I cant eat for emotional comfort anymore! It is incredible how the mind and body works. Even more incredible when you can get them to work together.

Anyone here tried binging since surgery?

[FatToPhat 83]

Oh yes! Old habits are hard to break. I almost wished I COULD have hurled!! Just sitting there hurting for a half hour or more until the pain went away was not a lot of fun either! I still catch myself putting the old serving size on my plate without thinking and then trying to finish it all because of my old behaviour of never wanting to waste any food, especially GOOD food!

[TijuanaPlication 87]

Not binged or been sick since my surgery (I'm 9 months out).

What's being sick like? Is it any different to before? I've really been wondering about that one as I guess it'll happen one day and it'd be good to be forewarned what to expect.

I was told that if I vomited in the first 3 weeks that could rip all the stitches apart so I've been afraid and therefore very cautious ever since.