Finally letting go all ive carried for so long.....

[jbellastar 1]

I am new at all of this. I have completed everything and time is winding down. Nerves are setting in. I just cleared my medical clearance and just waiting for insurance approval and then surgery date. 6 months ago i was all confidence as i was knocking out all my medical appointments and completing each nutrition classes month after month. Today i believe it all set in that i have nothing left theres no more appointments just the waiting game. I'm excited to divorce food and become a better, healthier version of myself. Over the years i have lost my whole family in car accidents or due to health reasons i am the sole survivor of my family and I will be the change. I will be a healthier person and hope to just live life to the fullest have chances that they were unable to have. I am not having this surgery for vantity purposes but for a better quality of life. I love myself reguardless of my weight. With all that said (I have a tendancy to ramble) I am nervous. I am scared that i am going to forget everything everday or im not going to be able to walk away from my "happy foods". i think about everything that im giving up and not aloud to have anymore. I understand i did this to myself with all those foods that i love and the control that i lack. I feel like the only one that feels like this.........

[Kurstin 72]

I am new at all of this. I have completed everything and time is winding down. Nerves are setting in. I just cleared my medical clearance and just waiting for insurance approval and then surgery date. 6 months ago i was all confidence as i was knocking out all my medical appointments and completing each nutrition classes month after month. Today i believe it all set in that i have nothing left theres no more appointments just the waiting game. I'm excited to divorce food and become a better' date=' healthier version of myself. Over the years i have lost my whole family in car accidents or due to health reasons i am the sole survivor of my family and I will be the change. I will be a healthier person and hope to just live life to the fullest have chances that they were unable to have. I am not having this surgery for vantity purposes but for a better quality of life. I love myself reguardless of my weight. With all that said (I have a tendancy to ramble) I am nervous. I am scared that i am going to forget everything everday or im not going to be able to walk away from my "happy foods". i think about everything that im giving up and not aloud to have anymore. I understand i did this to myself with all those foods that i love and the control that i lack. I feel like the only one that feels like this.........[/quote']

I understand your anxiety. Now that I have everything done and am just playing the waiting game until May, I find myself doubting the ability to control myself once I have the surgery or I have this fear that I'm going to lose it all just to gain back every pound. I think that I am just nervous for what's to come though. We've made the right choice! More than all of those fears of not doing well I think everyday that I'm so glad I started this process!