jaye1464 70 Posted September 24, 2013 I promised u guys I would give u am update so I am. It's totally devastating at this point but tomorrow I have labs just to confirm what the dr is saying. It's a miscarriage. As of right now looks like fri I am having a d&c. I have to stop all of my blood thinner. I wish things would have turned so so much different and Idk it didn't. I have no answers why I would after all these years get pregnant to just have another loss. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. While a part of me wants to hold out some hope against all hope..I know in my mind it's futile. There was nothing again today on us. With my lab numbers what they are he said there should have been a sight of something at least 5k points ago. At this point I just want it over and to have peace. I don't think I'm ever gonna get over this and this is it for me. 4 losses is all I can handle. I can't go through this again. Crackheads can do it and 14year old girls can do it..so many unwanted children out there and I who could give a child a loving stable home..am not good enough. I will never understand this. Thank you all for the love and support and prayers. It's truly meant a lot to me. I don't know if I will really be on here anytime soon. Too much is overwhelming me. We are also putting our house in the market tomm. It's just too much right now. Hey, I can't imagine what you're going through right now. Just know you are loved and cared for, you're amazing and have been such an inspiration to me. If you are absent from here for a bit, we'll understand, just come back! Love, prayers and hugs.....sending them all your way. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
deaddemmama 474 Posted September 24, 2013 Holy cow! I forgot how miserable a bowel prep is. It's going to be a long night. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MGteacher 43 Posted September 24, 2013 I promised u guys I would give u am update so I am. It's totally devastating at this point but tomorrow I have labs just to confirm what the dr is saying. It's a miscarriage. As of right now looks like fri I am having a d&c. I have to stop all of my blood thinner. I wish things would have turned so so much different and Idk it didn't. I have no answers why I would after all these years get pregnant to just have another loss. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. While a part of me wants to hold out some hope against all hope..I know in my mind it's futile. There was nothing again today on us. With my lab numbers what they are he said there should have been a sight of something at least 5k points ago. At this point I just want it over and to have peace. I don't think I'm ever gonna get over this and this is it for me. 4 losses is all I can handle. I can't go through this again. Crackheads can do it and 14year old girls can do it..so many unwanted children out there and I who could give a child a loving stable home..am not good enough. I will never understand this. Thank you all for the love and support and prayers. It's truly meant a lot to me. I don't know if I will really be on here anytime soon. Too much is overwhelming me. We are also putting our house in the market tomm. It's just too much right now. I'm so sorry this didn't turn out the way you had hoped. I know it's beyond difficult, but you'll get through it. I think there's a really strong chance that your body will be more ready in a few months. Try to think positively. I really think your new lifestyle will make this happen eventually. Hang in there. 2 Krystal7k and Dorian reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
pebulz 135 Posted September 24, 2013 I promised u guys I would give u am update so I am. It's totally devastating at this point but tomorrow I have labs just to confirm what the dr is saying. It's a miscarriage. As of right now looks like fri I am having a d&c. I have to stop all of my blood thinner. I wish things would have turned so so much different and Idk it didn't. I have no answers why I would after all these years get pregnant to just have another loss. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. While a part of me wants to hold out some hope against all hope..I know in my mind it's futile. There was nothing again today on us. With my lab numbers what they are he said there should have been a sight of something at least 5k points ago. At this point I just want it over and to have peace. I don't think I'm ever gonna get over this and this is it for me. 4 losses is all I can handle. I can't go through this again. Crackheads can do it and 14year old girls can do it..so many unwanted children out there and I who could give a child a loving stable home..am not good enough. I will never understand this. Thank you all for the love and support and prayers. It's truly meant a lot to me. I don't know if I will really be on here anytime soon. Too much is overwhelming me. We are also putting our house in the market tomm. It's just too much right now. My heart is breaking for you I will continue to keep you in my prayers {{{hugs}}} SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Obeasta 92 Posted September 24, 2013 Alaina, i am heartbroken with you, girl. Words escape me now. I am so terribly sorry to hear this. No, it doesnt make sense and life is unfair. I wish you didnt have to go through this. much love and a big hug xxz 1 pebulz reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Obeasta 92 Posted September 24, 2013 Deaddemmamma what is the latest? How are you hanging on? They think there's another ulcer?? OMG! How are you feeling physically and mentally? Keeping you in my thoughts as well!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Obeasta 92 Posted September 24, 2013 Dori that is so funny about the nurse, hahaha i can just imagine her! 1 Dorian reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
slowtogo 301 Posted September 24, 2013 Got my liver biopsy test results back my liver is really inflamed plus its fatty duh. so lose more weight will see if your levels go down. I've lost a hundred and five pounds already. what more does he want. My levels bounce back up higher in July so I don't know what's going on. I asked if this is causing all the other issues im having that we can't figure out and he said he didn't think so. so If my levels are still up after I lose another 50 pounds he said come back. HW 358 SW 344 CW 253 RNY 4/11/2013 Hockey, My levels jump up if I get dehydrated. So drink drink drink. (Hug) 1 hockeymumzie reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
deaddemmama 474 Posted September 24, 2013 Deaddemmamma what is the latest? How are you hanging on? They think there's another ulcer?? OMG! How are you feeling physically and mentally? Keeping you in my thoughts as well!! Can't find the new source of bleeding yet, but omg...it's getting old. Feeling very frustrated physically and mentally. Thanks for your kind thoughts. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dorian 683 Posted September 25, 2013 Can't find the new source of bleeding yet' date=' but omg...it's getting old. Feeling very frustrated physically and mentally. Thanks for your kind thoughts.[/quote'] I bet it is getting old! Why are they having so much trouble finding what is wrong?? Hope this is resolved soon and you are on the path to recovery!! ♥♥ Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
deaddemmama 474 Posted September 25, 2013 I bet it is getting old! Why are they having so much trouble finding what is wrong?? Hope this is resolved soon and you are on the path to recovery!! ♥♥ Well, they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. . Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
pebulz 135 Posted September 25, 2013 Well' date=' they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. .[/quote'] Good luck hope they figure it out soon! SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
pebulz 135 Posted September 25, 2013 Well' date=' they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. .[/quote'] Good luck hope they figure it out soon! SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
deaddemmama 474 Posted September 25, 2013 Good luck hope they figure it out soon! SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs Yeah, me too...colonoscopy showed no bleeding, but my blood count is now down 2.5 points...have to have another transfusion....wtf? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hockeymumzie 181 Posted September 26, 2013 Yeah' date=' me too...colonoscopy showed no bleeding, but my blood count is now down 2.5 points...have to have another transfusion....wtf?[/quote'] Praying for you HW 358 SW 344 CW 252 RNY 4/11/2013 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites