Still see the fat girl

[1972 17]

Strange I have been 187 pounds before. Back in 2003 and believe it or not I was happy in my skin. Now I'm smaller but I see so much fat. And the depression is overwhelming. Wellbutrin isn't working and I'm afraid to take anything else. Any one been here.

[kiwiladydee 402]

Hi!! Yes, I'm having a hard time adjusting as well. I do not want to buy clothes, hate being naked and I'm too focused on getting that number down.

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[JustJenn 542]

I am having a hard time adjusting too. Even compliments makes me feel awkward. I don't feel comfortable naked I cringe when my husband wants to hold me because I don't want him to feel all the fat. I obsess over my appearance of a double chin when sometimes it's there and sometimes it not. I still see all 389 lbs of the old me. It's hard! But we are human.

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[abbybeep 53]

Totally know what you are going though, and just remember that you're not alone, many of us are struggling. I know that everyone is different, but this is what has helped me- I kept a pair of my largest jeans, and from time to time I take them out and put them on, in front of the mirror to remind myself how far I've come. Also, every few days I take time to look at myself in a full length mirror. It was hard at first- I avoided mirrors like the plague, like I'm sure many of us did! But it's important to find little things that you like about your new body, even though you can probably find double the amount of things you don't like. Just find a few good things to hold on to. You're beautiful! Chin up!