February 2007 Bandsters Unite!

[Dame J 0]

Well the tape is off! The incisions look good 3 out of 5 already look like nothing much and I can tell that in a year the scars for those will be blended in. As for the other two one is just going to take more time and the other is just so big. Or at least it seems that way. So gross where the stich comes out. Gross. Hope that goes away pretty quick.

Well back at work after a week off. So hard to come back after such a great week of comfy clothes, lounging, sleeping, great books and TV. :cry

[becca77 0]

Okay guys, I'm going through the "what have I done to myself" phase today. I miss food! I want to eat! I know that I want this more but it still doesn't take the sadness away. I was so moody all day, I was snapping at my poor little girl for no good reason. And then I drank a McDonalds chocoalte milkshake. I feel sooooo guilty now, like what the hell am I doing to myself. I just spent 16k, this better work but I wonder if I will have the control I need. Sorry guys, I just had to say this, I feel like crying right now.

[Astrotoes 0]

Ok Becca so your being real that's all and I think if we did'nt have those days it would'nt be normal.We all obviously have the love/hate thing going on with food and if we could be cured of our head hunger some other way we would'nt have needed the surgery (there are days I wanted to chew something so bad I would have tried boot leather).I think we have to white knuckle through these rough Patches in hopes that they get fewer and fewer until we find the "new normal", that others on this board have found. I also think this part is hard because for me anyways the scales are just not moving and I think the momentum of weight loss will also carry us through the rougher days when we just 2nd guess ourselves. When I'm in my OMG what have I done phase I try to look at some of the before and after pics on the forum or look at the tickers of some of the regulars here.I hope it helps to know that others have had days like your having (mine was Saturday) and I just keep counting days until the next excitng phase.......mmmmmm mushies! I hope this did'nt sound too Dr.Phillish! Good luck,:mad:

[becca77 0]

Thanks Astroetoes. I needed to hear that.

[Yoda 0]

Hang in there Becca (u too Astro).....tis all normal, as Astro said. I STILL have those days!!!

[Gaffer 1]

Hey Becca, dont focus on the mistakes, but rather look at your victories and what you will accomplish in the long term. One milkshake is not going to undo what you have accomplished, just dont make a lifestyle out of it.

We have been through alot, especially in the last week, and if you want a shake as a reward I dont see a problem in that.

Andrew

[Doddie63 6]

Glad the gas pains have disappeared. Touch wood, I haven't had any problems so far. Haven't started exercising yet (not into exercise that is my problem over the years). thanks for the tips on the chart. I have gotten as far as cutting, but haven't figured out how to save it or paste it.

Doddie

Dr Yau TLBC Toronto

Feb.01/07

[Dame J 0]

Becca you will do just fine. Forget that little set back and just move on. :mad:

I do know how you feel. I never knew my true love of food until this, and I know a lot of people here say that. I do though. Just the other day my mom ordered pizza and there she was eating this amazing looking and smelling pizza while I had blended veggie Soup for the 10th time that week. Seriously I excused myself and had a little cry. I know that sounds stupid but I miss the food. I just try to keep focused on the end result and what this will all mean for me. It's hard but that's what I love about this forum. I feel like no matter what someone here has probably been in that same boat as me and got passed it. That makes me feel better.

Don't worry Becca your doing great. Just look at that ticker of yours! :clap2:

[Doddie63 6]

Hi Becca: Hey come on. You are perfectly normal. You are trying deparately to change your lifestyle for the betterment of yourself and your family. You are bound to have a slip or two. That is what makes the journey all that more interesting. Experimenting, testing yourself, and yes failure make a better person. Think about your life, has it all been smooth sailing. Enjoy the milkshake and give yourself a bit of praise and get back on the bandwagon. The band is not about starving, depriving yourself, it is about helping you to lead a healthy lifestyle but you ain't going to get there without a few setbacks. Posting shows you have not given up and if we can support you keep on posting. Doddie

[Dame J 0]

Doddie don't know if you are having trouble with the ticker. I assume that is what you mean.

Anyway I used this link to help me figure out how to set up and show my ticker. Good Luck!

http://www.lapbandtalk.com/get-ticker-your-t16218.html

[Doddie63 6]

Dame J. Thank you so much. I am not a computer whiz kid that has grown up with computers as I am older so have had to self teach myself by asking questions.

I think I have it now. I also printed out and saved the link. Doreen

[Dame J 0]

Hey you're welcome Doreen. Hang around this site and you might surprise yourself and become a whiz at the computer.

[Doddie63 6]

That and learn all the useful hints and encouragements that are posted here. Love the humour also.

[priscilla 1]

Hey Becca and everyone! Just read Becca's post and wanted to say that I think there really is a bit of a grieving period for sure about wanting lots of food and whatever we want, when we want it. Good news! We can't eat a lot now cause our band reminds us to slow down. Milkshake sounds good to me especially if it was chocolate - for now I have resisted but I don't doubt that I will have the odd slip now and then. I just tried microwaved mashed/mushed eggs and got reminded that one egg fills me up when I could have a whole Breakfast with bacon and toast and Peanut Butter before the band. I feel so much joy in knowing I have control at last (with help from my little bandalien friend in there). Just think of the band as your safety net if you feel like your gonna fall. It catches us and tells us not to worry because we are safe now from the predator food pangs that have plagued us all our lives. Oh yeah, I still want sweets, but I think about that band and this is absolutely the first time in my life I have not given in. You know why? Cause I feel HOPE instead of having this sinking feeling that I can't keep up the denial. Will I have the odd forbidden low nutrition blow out - probably. Will I keep on doing that? No way. I have HOPE inside me (literally) and its holding my hand (stomach?)throughout this trip telling me that it will not let me fail forever. I am one week further along from surgery than you are right now and I know that a week ago, I was also feeling some despair. Go ahead and feel it, you will get past it. From what I see of the posts in this forum, you are as normal as the day is long. Don't be so hard on yourself - you are gonna win this battle for once and for all. Look what courageous steps you have taken so far. Some will be baby steps, some will be giant leaps. Now exercise that face and SMILE! What a good job you are doing. :kiss2:

[jcinabita 0]

Today is my 8th day post op. I guess my stomach is not swollen any more because I am eating a lot more than I think I am supposed to :hungry: . I have my first post op Dr. appt.today. Maybe I'll get a fill, I hope so. I don't like the idea of going through this and having the same appetite as before. I've lost about 25 lbs. with the pre-op diet and this past week of not eating very much :clap2: . I don't want the progress to stop now.