Terrified of Food

[PoppyAnn 7]

My surgery was May 12, 2012, weight on that day 316. Today I weigh 174, but I have been sick every since my surgery.

I have no energy and just want to start enjoying the new me, but I found out last week I am going to require surgery in the next few weeks.

They are going in to look at the bowels to see why are not working properly, refix a huge hernia on my belly, retighten the abdominal muscles and remove the excess skin. This may or may not help, and I am so scared of losing this fight to be thin and healthy.

I will leave you with my before at my highest weight of 400 and the current me. Also a picture of the ugliest tummy in the world. Of you look at the upper right side on the pic you can see the bulge from the hernia. I am do embarrassed by my tummy!!!

[PoppyAnn 7]

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[michelecaples 224]

I think you will feel awesome after your surgery. You look great and this is just a speedbump

[kristy3k 1,133]

I hope everything goes well for you. I think you look really good.

[Wendilou 180]

PoppyAnn you look great and you should be sooooo proud of yourself! I wish you the best with your next surgery =)

[PoppyAnn 7]

Thank all of you for your comments. I just want to feel good again. The doc said surgery will be long. And very difficult and I have to admit I am so scared.

[kristy3k 1,133]

I would be scared too... is the hernia the result of the surgery. Are the bowels not working properly because of the RNY. I ask only because I have such a problem with constipation.. Im 20 days away from being a year out. I drink an herbal tea called Smooth Move every other day.. just to keep my bowels going.

[PoppyAnn 7]

Kristi the hernia was from back surgery 3 years ago. The went through my tummy. I then went 2 years ago to fix the hernia. After the hernia surgery I got staph and it took me right at a year to recover.

After that the hernia came back. Then I went to a new surgeon to get it fixed again. That doctor Dr Jeffery Lord said losing weight first would be a great help. So I let Sr Lord do the gastric bypass. It was during per op test we first heard that the bowels were extremely slow. I go 2 weeks sometimes between vowel movements.

The gastric bypass is the best thing I have ever done for me. All the other was present prior to surgery.

[kristy3k 1,133]

Wow... You have been thru quite alot... Glad you are still happy with your decision to have rny. Again good luck on the next stage.