A Long Journey

[Kaigirl 4]

Hey all,

I don't really post on here too much unless its to contribute to ongoing threads. However yesterday was one of the best days I have had in years. It was a day just like any other but what changed is how I feel about myself. I am 3 1/2 months out and I have lost 70 pounds. Yesterday I decided that my clothes were falling off me and I needed to buy new ones. Then I started looking through some old clothes just to see if I could save some money. I fit in to 80% of the things I found! Some things I haven't worn since high school. I went from a size 26/28 to a size 20 in 3 months. So at this point I just broke down and cried. I cried because I was so happy, but also because I was so confused. When I look in the mirror I still see that 300 pound mess of a person that I was. Occasionally I'll get a glimpse of the new me. Does this happen to anyone else? And more importantly, does it ever go away? I want to see the real me all the time, not who I was. I'm glad I have all of you to share experiences with because normal people can't even begin to understand what we've been through. Have a great day everyone.

[music1618 879]

I still have those days where I still feel like the 22 sized woman I was. What helps me is to look at old photos of myself and you can really see the difference. It just so happens that I started a new job one week after surgery and of course we had to take our Id photo and it looks nothing like me now.

I had one of those shopping sprees not to long ago and it really boosted my confidence and for the first time in years I felt sexy!

[kristy3k 1,133]

I have heard the mental part is the hardest.. I still see myself as the over 300 lb fat mom but am working hard on that image. I have been so consumed on exercising and getting all my Protein in and then bam... It hits you that you are oh so close to goal... Yet you still feel fat. I'm guessing it is just going to take awhile for the mind to catch up... But it will... I'm sure!!

[LA GP 117]

I never really seen myself as fat as my weight grew to 291. But clothes would no longer fit and my family let me know I was big. But looking in the mirror I never seen it.

Then after losing 30 pounds now I still don't see any change except for clothes sizes and the wife again. It's very hard for me to "see" changes as well.