Holidays Fears And Rambles And Updates

[Sparklette 381]

Last holiday season before my surgery. I realized this last night this will be the last holiday that I will eat a lot of turkey and pass out on the couch while my family yells over football. I realized that I may never eat my mothers famous sheet cake again. I realized this will be the

Last year I will tell my family the wrong size of clothing while they shop. This is the last new years I will have a weight loss goal.

I am nervous and excited and a little sad about the upcoming holiday season. Then January I will prepare for my surgery. Jan 16 is when my psych will give the okay to be re evaluated. Two and a half months. It feels like it is crawling some days other days it feels like it is zooming by.

I watched a documentary on rny the other day and freaked my self out. There is a huge deference from seeing the models and seeing the thing live.

[pwnykat 42]

wow what was the documentary called? I've looked up some videos on youtube, but a proper documentary would be cool.

and yeah, I am thinking similar, only since my surgery is before xmas, its more that I wont be able to do all those bingey things I did last year, and I'm ok with that... I think...

[Sparklette 381]

I don't remember what it was called . It was on discovery health at like two in the morning lol.

I was thinking about everything while I was pondering what to get everyone and it all hit and I cried like a baby. Idk I get super emotional when I think about how much everything will change. Both in a good way and a bad way. I worry about how I will change and how people will see me. I worry about missing out being able to drink on my 21st birthday and losing friends after the subconscious social structure is disrupted. But on the other hand I sorry about not having kids or dying I'm the next 10 years.

Even though I have these worries the surgery is everything I want and need wrapped up in one. I want this more than anything , I am scared about something going wrong or failing

[worm2872 635]

I'm scared too but I know, like you, that this is best. My surgery is the 19th so I may even be in the hospital on turkey day. I'm good with it. Actually it will be few less pounds to lose. I don't want people to know but the will. Three weeks off work then losing 130 pounds (positive thinking). Good luck to you!! We are here to help.

[lovealways 287]

I feel your pain. The holidays for my family is a huge time for eating and gorging ourselves. This is even more scary for me because it looks like I will most likely be stuck doing my two week liquid diet right smack during Christmas Eve and Day. This is a huge challenge. I'm always in charge of baking Cookies and we have a big party on xmas eve with tons of catering...ugh...we can do this!

[TinyMamiOf3kids 1,280]

I always make all the holiday meals. The good news for me is I can enjoy it all in tiny amount except the piece of apple pie. I will not feel excluded but I wont & can't over eat anyhow. We can in the future with out over doing it enjoy food again & go back on track.