From ND and OMG I can finally do it...

[Guest amanda.slominsk]

Hello all,

I have for the past month or so been researching lapband (mainly on this site) and have posted on a few threads already. All my life I have been overweight and finally have "accepted" who I am. I am currently happy with who I am but not nececarily my weight. I have found many very encouraging posts and alot of feedback on all the questions that I have had so far.

I, last week, found out my pre-op, surgery and post-op would be covered with the ok from the doctor by ND BCBS. There still will be a $1250.00 deductible but since I recently (this year) had surgery on my thumb I think that I have paid for most of it. I am assuming that ND BCBS will cover fills but is that what the insurance co. means by post-op?

Being a student 1250 is still out of reach. With the medical bills that I have been receving from my surgery I am running out of cash. That was until five minutes ago when I went to go get a financial aid check (which is usually around 500 and just barely covers my books). I have recieved enough financial aid to not only pay off tuition for the rest of the semester I will also have excess to help pay off my surgery!!!!! My heart is racing about 1000 beats a minute because I am excited.

I am at the same time terrified of what might happen if I do get the surgery. Am I wanting this surgery not because I am truly wanting to change my life but because I can afford it? Im really confused. At times I know that I can go through with the surgery and change my lifestyle while at other times I am lost and confused about not being able to control myself when it comes to food...well when it comes to carbonation. Carbonation is my biggest and whats scary is the only concern I have for getting lapband done.

All my life I have tried (with numerous failures) too keep jesus christ in my heart and daily life. I see this as an opportunity that God has given me but I know that he really wants me to succeed. My parents are really pushing for this surgery, they want me to live and lead a healthy life. Don't get me wrong this is great. I absolutely love the support but at the same time this was not my idea to begin with so how do I know im not just doing it for them?:help:

I was diagnosed with depression and ADHD when I was in the second grade. I have had many up as well as downs with my depression and ADHD. After four years of going with out medication I entered college in the Fall of '05. In the spring I was seeing a doctor who was giving me medications for both (cymbalta and welbutrin for depression and concerta for adhd) and they are amazing. The problem is they are mostly time released and cannot be supplimented! Will this be a problem when I have lapband?

**off the topic question**

For the past three weeks I have been unable to take my meds because I have an OD of meds since I am also on pain killers. I already have a hard time taking meds and to add to it I feel as if I have food poisioning when I take my concerta, cymbalta and welbutrin XL with darvaset. To add to it the surgeon has placed me on cephalexin (an antibiotic) because I may have developed an infection at the site of the pin in my thumb. Any suggestions? I am having a hard time with my mood since I have been off my meds but I really cant function with the pain. I have talked to the doctor and all he recommened was to take them at different times (which I told him I was already doing) and he didnt have any more suggestions.

**back on topic**

I am becomming overwhelmed with the idea of lapband as well as life and im not sure which is more consuming of my thoughts. everytime i see or think about food i think about life with the lapband and all that comes to mind are positive thoughts, not "o im not going to be able to eat it" but they are "i just wont be able to eat alot of it or i could live with out it"

well i have class so i have to take off.

Is there anyone from grand forks?

Amanda