Trying But Worried!

[Nicole K 352]

It's need to vent as I feel as though I'm not going to go through with WLS.

Let me back up. 3 years ago I went through all the testing for a lap band. I got all the way to preop hospital testing liquid diet and came down with a nasty cold. Anesthiologist said no surgery. So did I reschedule?? No. Did doctor's office call me to reschedule? No. So I never went back.

Now I've got all my testing done for RNY and no surgery date yet. I need to lose 15 pounds prior to surgery. I don't have the motivation to get going on losing this 15 lbs.

Am I pulling another Julia Roberts and tring to runaway again. During testing I was so psyched to get this done but now that it's so close, I'm dragging my butt.

I hope someone else out there is going through this too!!!

Nicole

[jennamommy 80]

Sounds like self sabatosh. We have all been through it at one point or another or we probably wouldn't be where we are today. You have to make a choice what do you want more do you want health and to feel and look great. Or do you want to be stuck in the rut for the rest of your life. 15 pounds is nothin compared to the big pic... RIGHT!!!! So I say do it. Get the motivation. Dance around your living room mi e move move. Ask your self will my world end if I don't eat this. Ect. I believe in you and I think you can do this.....

[kisersassy 369]

I feel same way that I am subconsciously self sabotaging myself. My biggest fear is going through all this and either I her denied or husband will get laid off work before I can have surgery. I did do a good thing for myself and quit smoking in July just to have gained 7 pounds at weigh in in August. Now was told to lose 5 pounds before next weigh in and so that stresses me out even more. And what do most want to do when stressed? EAT!! No matter what I do I feel I can't do it. I have tried waking up doing a all liquid diet to help but after a couple hours I feel my sugar dropping and I get like a cold sweat confused shaky so it scares me so bad I eat. I feel defeated from all this over 5 pounds I just want to start smoking again till after this months weigh in. But I'm not going to gotta have will power on this at least

[Nicole K 352]

Thanks. I know I can do this. I had to meet with surgeon on a Friday and crash dieted with shakes etc. on Monday through Thursday and I lost 7 pounds when she weighed me. Of course I gained it all back. Grrr. So back to square one. Thanks for the encouragement. I appreciate it.

[kisersassy 369]

We can do it. It's just the hardest thing I have done. Quitting smoking after 26 years wasn't this hard LOL

[Nicole K 352]

Yes we can! Awesome job on the smoking thing. That in itself is hard enough to do but to add the surgery on top of it!!! you deserve a bravo!!!