New Physical Activities!

[4Kimmy2 56]

I want to be able to walk up the stairs at a Water park and not be winded where i've got to stop when going up. I want to be able to go on the waterslides with the tube and not touch the bottom with my butt because i'm too heavy. I want to be able to breath while barely jogging. I want to go sledding and not struggle to go up because I can't breath. I want to be able to buy snow pants instead of wearing 2 pairs of pants and freezing. I want to go somewhere with my friends and not be the biggest. I don't want to sit and watch everyones purses or drinks while my friends are dancing.

I look around at the Water parks and see all these skinny moms together, chatting and then theres me. Hoping and wanting to be smaller so that I don't get the looks(that eeewww look). I don't want be the one giving or getting dirty looks. I don't want people to judge me for the way I look. Sadly too many people judge and teach their children to judge.

Oh the joys that I can't wait for!!! Small or big I want to do everything!!!

Mostly I want my kids arms to be able to hug me with them being able to put squeeze me to tight that they can touch their hands so I can get the biggest bear hug from my sweet children!!!!

[katiebug12 2]

I would love to be able to run in an event like for breast cancer or multiple sclerosis. I can't wait to take a dance class. I would love to do zumba. I want to be able to bike all over on the trails. I also want to go on a shopping marathon and buy all of the cute skinny girl clothes!

[katiebug12 2]

Yes, and i want to not be afraid of the camera.

[jeremysmoma 7]

I would love to be able to run in an event like for breast cancer or multiple sclerosis. I can't wait to take a dance class. I would love to do zumba. I want to be able to bike all over on the trails. I also want to go on a shopping marathon and buy all of the cute skinny girl clothes!

It would be nice to go to wal-mart without getting one of those electric wheelchair carts. I want to go to the mall further than just the stores near where I parked. I want to stand up during praise and worship when they play music like everybody else. I have a really bad messed up back and I know getting this extra human off of me will free me and take away my pain. I can't wait to be the mom and dad (I'm a singal parent) my son deserves. I too want him to hug me and reach all the way around. I want to go to his school and not feel like I'm embarassing him. I am in here. I want to move and do things. I will transform and become "me". Just you wait and see!

[aNuMe 59]

It would be nice to go to wal-mart without getting one of those electric wheelchair carts. I want to go to the mall further than just the stores near where I parked. I want to stand up during praise and worship when they play music like everybody else. I have a really bad messed up back and I know getting this extra human off of me will free me and take away my pain. I can't wait to be the mom and dad (I'm a singal parent) my son deserves. I too want him to hug me and reach all the way around. I want to go to his school and not feel like I'm embarassing him. I am in here. I want to move and do things. I will transform and become "me". Just you wait and see!

Man I feel like u wrote this post for the both of us, u took the words rite outta my mouth.

[kloveburd 132]

I happened to be talking to somebody the other day online that didn't know I was overweight and he brought up there was a chick at a grocery store under 30 but was "pushing 200" and thought it was disgusting and wouldn't even give her the time of day. I then said some people fail at things they can hide, obese people failed at something that is visible to the whole world, why would you make that world harder for them? And he shut up. I never got the skinny/fat girl bias before, most likely because people either avoided me or accepted me for me but I was taken off guard by this cruelty. I can't stand the judgmental side of this and hope to maybe help people in the future through this process to a healthier and carefree lifestyle where they are not subjected to the ugly in this world we live in

[jeremysmoma 7]

Me top I have never been able to do a cartwheel I can't wait to go down a waterside and ride the rides at amusement parks and dance my booty off!

To shake your booty on purpose, instead of it shaking on it's on. Lol

[jeremysmoma 7]

I happened to be talking to somebody the other day online that didn't know I was overweight and he brought up there was a chick at a grocery store under 30 but was "pushing 200" and thought it was disgusting and wouldn't even give her the time of day. I then said some people fail at things they can hide' date=' obese people failed at something that is visible to the whole world, why would you make that world harder for them? And he shut up. I never got the skinny/fat girl bias before, most likely because people either avoided me or accepted me for me but I was taken off guard by this cruelty. I can't stand the judgmental side of this and hope to maybe help people in the future through this process to a healthier and carefree lifestyle where they are not subjected to the ugly in this world we live in[/quote']

I wonder if the Lord made me this way so I could appreciate everyone for who they are, even their shell. What those mean people are missing with their cruel outlook on others. I myself asorb and observe others (quiet and watchful) because I don't feel apart of others due to being overweight. This has afforded me the ability to regonize these mean people and their intentions to me. They are the ones who are hurting. They are ugly on the inside where I have the ability to be beautiful on the inside and the outside. There is a special place for people that treat people that way, the less than, and have a corroded heart. Just like there is a special place for those who love everyone, even the cruel ones. I myself am thankful that I can love someone beside and before myself!

[TinyMamiOf3kids 1,280]

You never know what another person is going threw. Until it happens to you. I was slim before & thought negative on bigger people. You name it I thought it. Life taught me a BIG lesson never judge a book by it's cover. I'm now experiencing what it's like to be a fat women & be talked about. It can happen to anyone and being fat doesn't make you lazy or a bad parent. Thanks god I no longer think that way but I feel bad I had a negative thought. Thanks god I never approach someone or made Someone feel bad. I just thought it in my own mind. I guess I got punish but got a chance to change everything inside out.

[kloveburd 132]

I wonder if the Lord made me this way so I could appreciate everyone for who they are' date=' even their shell. What those mean people are missing with their cruel outlook on others. I myself asorb and observe others (quiet and watchful) because I don't feel apart of others due to being overweight. This has afforded me the ability to regonize these mean people and their intentions to me. They are the ones who are hurting. They are ugly on the inside where I have the ability to be beautiful on the inside and the outside. There is a special place for people that treat people that way, the less than, and have a corroded heart. Just like there is a special place for those who love everyone, even the cruel ones. I myself am thankful that I can love someone beside and before myself![/quote']

I feel the same way. However I never really thought about the weight issue until he brought it up and I was taken aback by it. I guess two human beings can't be on the same level if one of them is bigger than the other. I thought it was sad but honestly if that's something you need to know about someone in order to be friends with them, it tells me how shallow you really are. Yes I am fat. Yes I have problems with some food. Yes I know that at the end of the day most of it is on me for being like this. But I am making this change and when I DO get down to your size, i want nothing to do with you. Because if you don't see me for who I am underneath my skin why the hell would I give you the oppurtunity to when it's now deemed okay by you?

I am still truly amazed at the way we treat our own people, race, or ethnicity, based on views that even we ourselves don't really understand.

[jeremysmoma 7]

Man I feel like u wrote this post for the both of us' date=' u took the words rite outta my mouth.[/quote']

I had to use cart from Walmart again yesterday and I felt the need to tell everyone that I just had a nerve block done to my back which I had just done. Lord forbid if thdy thought I was fat and just couldn't walk that far or much. Inside me there is this fit and trim person that wants out. She wants to fit in the booth at El Cerro Grande mexican resturant. She wants to get on a bike. She wants to get regular clothes at regular prices. She wants to ride a horse or get on a motorcycle. She wants to spend quality time with her son doing things that require movement. She wants to sit in a chair without fear of going to the emergency room when she breaks it in front of everyone on Christmas. She wants simple things, things a normal sized person takes advantage of. Small things is what I want. Lord God I can't wait.

[aNuMe 59]

I had to use cart from Walmart again yesterday and I felt the need to tell everyone that I just had a nerve block done to my back which I had just done. Lord forbid if thdy thought I was fat and just couldn't walk that far or much. Inside me there is this fit and trim person that wants out. She wants to fit in the booth at El Cerro Grande mexican resturant. She wants to get on a bike. She wants to get regular clothes at regular prices. She wants to ride a horse or get on a motorcycle. She wants to spend quality time with her son doing things that require movement. She wants to sit in a chair without fear of going to the emergency room when she breaks it in front of everyone on Christmas. She wants simple things' date=' things a normal sized person takes advantage of. Small things is what I want. Lord God I can't wait.[/quote']

Say it again and man that fear of breaking a chair thats enough to drive you crazy, I dont even attempt to sit in a lawn chair those are the enemy, I too have a skinny girl screaming to get out of this "prison". I often wonder what my children think although my son he hates when I say things about myself he will say "mom your not fat" and im thinking who are you looking at, lol the love of a child. I cant wait to go in a store and get regular size clothes I jus mite break down and cry rite there in the store, its been a loooonnngggg time since I was considered small or even an ok size, and being the biggest person in your whole family is no fun either especially when you come from a family who LOVES to crack jokes on each other, lets jus say I always was on the receiving end.

[jeremysmoma 7]

Say it again and man that fear of breaking a chair thats enough to drive you crazy' date=' I dont even attempt to sit in a lawn chair those are the enemy, I too have a skinny girl screaming to get out of this "prison". I often wonder what my children think although my son he hates when I say things about myself he will say "mom your not fat" and im thinking who are you looking at, lol the love of a child. I cant wait to go in a store and get regular size clothes I jus mite break down and cry rite there in the store, its been a loooonnngggg time since I was considered small or even an ok size, and being the biggest person in your whole family is no fun either especially when you come from a family who LOVES to crack jokes on each other, lets jus say I always was on the receiving end.[/quote']

I was mortified when that happened right in front of whole family at Christmas. But my family supports me and never makes fun of me not even in fun so I am lucky there. I feel bad for you. If only they knew how bad that hurt. I hate chairs though, thats a fact.