5 months out and loving everything :-)

[gettingAllieback 15]

Your post brought me to tears, because as my username reflects...I haven't been myself in years ...so much of my headspace is taken up everyday with this weight issue. I feel like I will be free again and I can't wait. I'm gonna be the active mom and wife that I should be or that feels like its trapped in this body!!! Thanks for your thoughts.

[tangiepooh 3]

So' date=' five month anniversary and I sometimes can't quite take in all the changes in life over that time. Short period, monumental change.

Am I the same person? Yes, I am. But I feel as if someone has polished me. I feel shiny and full of energy, like I did many years ago. I am calm, confident and happy, emotions that have been buried beneath misery, uncertainty, frustration and anger. Not all weight related but summed up by my failure to deal with my health and weight.

Life is now full of endless possibilities. I see no barriers. I am even considering taking up running. Me, the girl who was told from a child that I was built for comfort, not speed.

I mentioned this in another post but I am beginning to like how I look, all of me. Yes there are some lumps and bumps but so what? I have restarted a social life and hosted a dinner for business colleagues last night with 4 courses. Didn't even panic - chopped up the starter and hid it round the plate: ate most of the piece of fish; had some sorbet from the pudding; and ate some oatcake and a bit of cheese. Sounds a lot but wasn't really - but no one noticed other than the man next to me who said he liked a woman who didn't fuss about her food, lol. If only he'd known :-))))) Now to get on with the next challenge, dating - eek!!!

When I had the surgery, I did so with great hope of change but not sure what it would look like. Now that I am here, I am not sure I can actually explain what this all means to me. It's pretty overwhelming to be down six sizes, there are times I barely recognise myself, lol.

I can tell you all the things I can now do that I couldn't before. But I wish you could see inside my head and see the new me or feel the pleasure I take in life now. This surgery has given me a second chance ... and I will not waste it.

Thanks for listening :-)))))[/quote']

Congratulations

[tangiepooh 3]

Good job

[Indigo1991 1,612]

GettingAllieBack, go for it, u won't be disappointed. I can't get back the times I didn't go swimming with my son when he was a baby or when I left him and his father to go sledging because I was too embarrassed...

But I am living now and accepting every opportunity with two hands and a HUGE smile :-))