the 2nd worst day of my life (trigger)

[ShrinkyDinkMe22 376]

9 months postop and on 8/10 had a positive pregnancy test. At first I was freaked out, then as the days went on we became more and more excited. I was worried about weight gain bc i wasn't at goal yet.

But I decided to just follow the plan and worry about the weight after baby comes. Fast forward to this past Thursday, I started spotting.

I called the on call OB and since I already had my 1st appointment scheduled for the next day, 9/20, he said there was no reason to come in early or go to the er unless I was in pain or bleeding a lot.

Upon doing the transvaginal ultrasound we learned that our jellybean stopped growing at 6w5d, Friday I was 9w5d.

My world just feel down on top of me.

I scheduled a d&c for the next day.

The 1st 2 days after I think in was in shock. Yesterday and today I'm so emotional and all I wanna do is eat. I haven't eaten for emotional reasons in almost a year.

Has anyone been here? Any words or advice?

Today has been especially bad bc I'm home alone. I took yesterday and today off of work. Yesterday I took my 3 yr to the zoo and we had a blast. Today she went to daycare.

We had a m/c before our daughter and now one after her. I'm beside myself.

[lilbearzmom 584]

So sorry for your loss. And know you are not alone- I am also a member of the m/c club. Keep your chin up. Time heals, truly. As an emotional eater myself, I can see how this would affect your diet. Hug your little girl extra tight and hang in there!

[Roo101769 742]

First off I want to express my deep condolences. I am so sorry for the loss of a life you had grown to love in such a short time. I have only had one pregnancy, and that was my miracle. So I am not in the same boat. But I do have a beautiful 4 (almost 5!) year old daughter that makes me so glad God decided to bless me, even if it was just once. Now about the emotional eating. The very fact you acknowledge it and have turned here for support shows you have made progress in your life. You know, in your heart, the food will not change your emotions. What you are feeling won't go away with every extra bite you take. What will happen is you will compound your pain with guilt for eating what you know you really don't want. Do not sabotage yourself, even in this dark emotional time. Grieve, but not through food. And remember that, if and when you are ready to add a member to your family, a healthy body will be a much better place to start from. My heart is with you...stay strong.

[Susie in Lima 320]

So sorry for your loss. I have no idea what you are going through but I do understand emotional eating (well I dont "understand" it but I do understand doing it) Anyway, I am an emotional eater too but I have found that when I turn to food now, it just makes me feel worse emotionally. I think because I KNOW what I am supposed to be doing and I KNOW that food is not the answer. Now, Like I said before, I have never been in your shoes. Try to find something to take your mind to another place, I am home alot because my husband travels and my kids are grown and I get really lonely. I have tried to read, walk, exercise, call a friend etc. And because I am an emotional eater, I make sure that I dont keep anything in the house that is easy to eat that is bad for me. If I have to exert effort to go somewhere, or if I have to mess up the kitchen to make something, it gives me extra time to talk myself out of doing it and figuring out that even if I eat it, it wont solve what ails me. Anyway, I am so so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you!

[ShrinkyDinkMe22 376]

Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. I know I'm in new territory and other sure how to deal with this reality.

Thank you for the words or wisdom.

[huligoo 75]

Im so sorry hun..

sending you hugs

[jen1211 203]

I'm sorry, it's a horrible thing to go through! I had a m/c before my son and it does just take time...I wish I had an answer regarding the food.< /p>

[tglastchance 9]

I lost my first son at 20 weeks....I just kept repeating to myself "we were going to have a baby but we had an angel instead" ... The pain hurts ... Allow yourself up grieve.... Hug your little girl and go through the grieving process...

[ShrinkyDinkMe22 376]

Thank you all so much.

[imfatpat 64]

I'm sorry for your loss.

Praying for you and your little angel.

[Fat Pat no more 89]

9 months postop and on 8/10 had a positive pregnancy test. At first I was freaked out' date=' then as the days went on we became more and more excited. I was worried about weight gain bc i wasn't at goal yet. But I decided to just follow the plan and worry about the weight after baby comes. Fast forward to this past Thursday, I started spotting. I called the on call OB and since I already had my 1st appointment scheduled for the next day, 9/20, he said there was no reason to come in early or go to the er unless I was in pain or bleeding a lot. Upon doing the transvaginal ultrasound we learned that our jellybean stopped growing at 6w5d, Friday I was 9w5d. My world just feel down on top of me. I scheduled a d&c for the next day. The 1st 2 days after I think in was in shock. Yesterday and today I'm so emotional and all I wanna do is eat. I haven't eaten for emotional reasons in almost a year. Has anyone been here? Any words or advice? Today has been especially bad bc I'm home alone. I took yesterday and today off of work. Yesterday I took my 3 yr to the zoo and we had a blast. Today she went to daycare. We had a m/c before our daughter and now one after her. I'm beside myself.[/quote']i

I hurt for you. I'll pray for you both.

[jen1211 203]

I started bleeding yesterday afternoon and have miscarried as well. I have definitely been stress eating these last two days...ice cream, Cookies and popcorn. I know I need to stop. :-(

[Flup 48]

I'm so sorry. I've had a few miscarriages myself, and they were emotionally traumatic for me. I wish you the best of luck in the future.