almost 3 weeks post op, rant & random thoughts.

[gia24 85]

I'm 3 weeks out. I haven't bought a scale. I was always embarrassed, Because of my weight. Even now I have a hard time actually telling anyone my highest weight..which was 386, lost 10lbs, pre-op but right after surgery in the hospital I seemed to gain it all back. I was so depressed, but was told this was typical and normal, not to worry. But of course I did. I struggled in the pre-op liquid diet and I did cheat, but didn't beat myself up and got back on track. I still lost weight though so I was happy.

Last Monday I went for my 2 week post-op check and I weighed 358.9. I was shocked, excited and fought back tears. Seriously? 2 weeks and I lost 27.1lbs.

I struggle to get all my liquids in and Protein, but I drink syntex nectar, I keep buying the sample pack until I finally find ones I really like, so far I've tried the Roadside Lemonade, I do have to tweek with a crystal light lemonade packet to make it tolerable, I have to do the same with the Twisted cherry, I add a packet of crystal light fruit punch, which I really like both of those I use with Water, I also like the double stuff cookie, Cappuccino, vanilla been torte, chocolate truffle, which I use with skim milk, I still have some other flavors to try before I commit and stop buying samples and actually buy a container or two. In one packet there are 4 servings, each serving has 25 calories, 0 fat, 0 sugar, 0 carbs and 6 grams of protein per serving. I'm.also looking for more protein shakes/drinks with more protein so I can reach my protein goals of 70-90g per day.

At my 2 week post-op I was advanced to soft foods, I love low fat skim mozzarella cheese sticks, Low fat cottage cheese and Greek yogurt, because of the protein usually around 12g to 14g depending on brand. I'm freaked out about the carbs and I know I need some and can't avoid them like in the Greek yogurt and other foods, but I need to stop being afraid to eat and only relying on drinking my protein.

I'm very conscious of food and my choices so I'm trying, I obsess about food labels and everything that is in it, especially carbs, sugar, and sodium.

I do try to get in as much liquid as I can. Mostly crystal light, regular water and sugar free Apple juice. I'm still eating sf Jello and sf popsicles occasionally, and low fat sugar free pudding.

Tomorrow I'm going to try chicken fajitas I found some great low fat recipes and need to get over my fear of trying to eat real soft food.

I'm still scared to buy a scale, but I want to, I want to monitor myself weekly but I'm afraid I'll become obsessive, I know there will be a stall and I don't want to be upset if the scale doesn't move out I don't lose weight.

Everything is all so new to me. I just don't know what to do. Anyone else feel this way, or do I have post-op brain, and too much time to think about my new sleeve, and not wanting to mess up my new tool or fall into bad habits again. I just want to reach my goals and be healthy.

[Alyjourneys 117]

Congrats. Don't be afraid. You are doing well. Let it become a new lifestyle. It becomes second nature. Kudos

[Bufflehead 6,358]

With the Syntrax, I just mix one packet with 8 oz. Water or milk (depending on the flavor). That's 24 g of Protein in 100 calories of powder, which is a really good ratio. There really aren't many out there better.