Breakdown

[NotLookinBack 164]

Soo.. I had my first breakdown today. I have a lot of life stuff going on.. And comments that were said.. I was walking around the grocery store and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I felt so self conscious and like everyone was staring at me. I'm still struggling getting Protein in.. And figuring out the puréed stage.. I literally pushed my cart down an aisle and came home.. I just wanted to wrap up in my comforter and stay there.

My daughters birthday is Saturday and my boyfriends ever so candidly kept reminding me that I wasn't going to be able to eat any of her birthday cake.. It's and that. I just felt how am I going to be a good mother.. A normal mother from here on out..

It's been a pretty emotional day for me.. Not to bad I guess considering its the first one In a week post op..

Hope tomorrow is better!

[gamergirl 4,610]

Yeah pretty much on schedule! I think most if us have a totally down day a week or two into surgery. I blogged about it and I knew nothing was really wrong, but I just felt depressed. People tell us it's all the estrogen that's stored in our fat that's being released that makes us weepy. My husband had it a day or two before I did where he was just really irritable.

Just know that this is normal, it will pass, and all you have to do is gut through it. ((Hugs))

[TJL 222]

Chin up you will get through this. As for the birthday cake you don't need to eat it, your daughter will have the cake and that's ok. No one would push cake on you if you were a diabetic, and this is no different it's for your health. There's lots of stuff you can have on the puree stage, just keep trying different things till you find what you like and can tolerate. Check out some of the posts in the food forums there's lots of lists there. Drink as much as you can, buy some unflavored Protein Powder and mix it in with whatever you can eat. The really good ones don't have a flavor, you won't even know its there.Good luck to you.

[Daydra 345]

I would like to add that being a good mom has nothing to do with eating birthday cake... and it's not like you can never have birthday cake ever again, you just aren't ever likely to have a large hunk of cake like we usually cut (the average person cuts cake pieces about 2-3 times bigger than a serving). You should discuss your boyfriends comments with him, however. Remind him that "reminding" you of all the things you "can't" have or do is really not helpful and only makes things harder on you.

Keep reminding yourself about all the days in the park, field trips, amusement park rides, hikes in the wilderness, swims in lakes, and anything else you can think of that you have in front of you to spend really quality time with your kids. Those experiences are going to be way more important to them than a stupid piece of cake at a single birthday party!

Congratulations on your work so far! You have so many great victories ahead!

[teeny1202 71]

Thank you for posting this. I don't know why i didn't figure it out earlier but i am miserable today and tonight. I can't get out of my own way, i have been an emotional wreck.

[NotLookinBack 164]

Thanks everyone.. I know I don't have to eat the cake.. Before I had surgery I hardly at the cake anyway.. I was too busy making sure everyone else is taken care of..

I got a good nights sleep and feel like a whole new person today.. I am going to get dressed and go to the grocery store and actually do my shopping today..

[alittler09 47]

I was exactly 1 week out yesterday and I had a meltdown also! My son is 9 months old, and I have never been frustrated with him, and yesterday I was:( now I feel guilty:(

I was ugly with everyone yesterday, I'm sick of liquids, sick if crushed pills, I'm exhausted, just ready to feel normal, body feels great but head is crazy right now!

Same here got a good nights sleep and got to start my shakes today and feel better!