I need to get this out of my system.....

[Tired_Old_Man 1]

Actually the girls that were working were lesbians lol, no fear there, especially when he's hugging and kissing on me

Weight problems often at the start are usually symptomatic of deeper problems. Once the body gets used to over-eating to compensate for the deeper problems, the thermostat and hunger management systems of the body can be and very often are thrown out of kilter.

A lap-band can help with the physical aspects of weight control, but the emotional needs can only be solved with professional emotional help. I am quite sure that I am not the only one who hears your cry for help in your gleeful posts.

Though I am not the only one, I may be one of the few who is so bold as to risk the censure of the larger group here, by telling you to save every penny you can on foolishness, fun and enjoyment in order to get some professional counseling. If you can not afford it, there are 12 step programs like Codependents Anonymous that might be able to help you.

You may be fooling yourself, but I am sure that there are many here who you are not fooling.

You are young and have so much life to experience. Don't throw it away playing games.

[Betsyjane 2]

The longer you cover up problems with stimulants (food, strippers, alcohol), the more of a mess you'll be in.

The more of a mess you're in, the more you'll wonder why other people get things and you don't.

The more you feel rage about others getting things, the less you'll be heard for who you are.

You say you want to get the goodies of life and you want to be heard...in order for that to happen you'll need to work through your problems.

If you don't work through your problems, you're choosing for things to remain the same.

If you choose for things to remain the same, don't be angry or surprised if you get what you choose.

[Wheetsin 714]

Jodie, earlier you mentioned that you don't have the money for counseling, then in the not so distant past alluded to a hundred dollar shopping spree at Wal-Mart because you were bored, if I remember correctly. Have you considered taking some of that shopping spree money, and getting the counseling instead? I really do think you would benefit from a good therapist, good being the operative word here.

[BJean 16]

I already gave my advice once, it wasn't appreciated so I'm just sitting here hoping she's using condoms.

[Betsyjane 2]

A woman who is busy drinking everyone else under the table is not likely to take advice...or condoms! A person who is drinking most of her calories with the band is headed for a fall. I don't think an internet intervention can sway her as much as a striiper. We are here to witness a car wreck.

[BJean 16]

I hope to God we don't witness AIDS exposure!

[musicalmomma 1]

After reading this thread/ "blog"...I am SOOOOO thankful I am not 19 anymore!!!! Being an adolescent is hard enough without looking for trouble.

[Betsyjane 2]

Notice that we're all talking among ourselves, and she's ignoring us? she was honest...she wanted a place to monolog....not help. Created chaos and left the room to go play another day. You're right about 19!

Not equating anyone with a pig, but I've always liked this expressions. "Never try to teach a pig to sing. It won't work, and it annoys the pig."

[BJean 16]

Betsyjane: Always loved that saying. And it seems to fit the circumstances quite well.

[Wheetsin 714]

One will use whatever means one has to receive the attention one needs. Blogs, abusive relationships, or otherwise.

[j_war06 0]

im not ignoring you guys, ive been busy with working, school, and a social life. every thing that I have done lately has been for free...like i went to a concert this week in Houston and it was all free except the gas. Im not an over eater, i dont eat my problems away, i never have or never will. I havent been drinking lately because I dont want to spend the money....any drinking that I do, is free. I still cant afford $125 an hour for a therapist, thats what mine costs, and Im sure its much greater in a bigger city. I have to admit that life is going my way right now....everything is great. I do feel a little unmotivated as far is getting stuff done that I need to get done, but if I just start doing it, then I will finish it.

BTW, Im on BC and always use condoms, always! And just because he's a stripper, doesnt make him that promiscuous. In fact, when he does a show or anything relevant to stripping, he doesnt use his real name, he makes one up so that they cant call him or have anything more to do with him. Im just having fun right now, but I am calming down some...yes I go out, but Im not drinking, Im dancing mostly...and if you people think that I have ever even given my stripper even a dollar your mistaken...he came to me! Thats how I roll, the boys come to me if they want to talk to me, not I to them. Im trying to get even more focused on school....both boys are definately encouraging that, they make sure i go to class, and get homework done. I will never allow myself an abusive relationship, I am a princess and I should be treated like one, I grew up in the country, dont think I cant hit or talk back! I dont even want a relationship right now, I dont need that on my plate, thats why I turned down the bartender last week when he decided he wanted me to be his girlfriend. I would never date someone that well, say the relationship started backwards lol! But seriously, I am smarter than that. I am happy with life, things are going great right now. Im finally everything I want. When I walk into the room, club, bar, whatever, I am the star! I dont want the attention the whole time, just when I walk in, and I want people to notice when I leave, and they do. I get hit on often, and I pretty much get what I want. Ive networked myself in this city, and now Im VIP at atleast 3 hot spots! Treated like a princess....at any of them. I dont know if you people understand, but I like to be noticed in a crowd, Im from a small town, where I knew everyone and they knew me, and I could do anything I wanted without consequences (I mean within reason, obviously if I were dumb enough to be on drugs and I got busted I wouldnt get away with that, or murder or anything). It feels good to know that you are going to be pampered when you go out, that people know you and love you to death!

[green 6]

Hi from Green. I am pleased to hear that you are taking care of the birth control and sexual disease bizness. I have to admit that I spent a kinda irregular life during my 20s and early 30s. The reasons for this were very complex and I will not bother to drag all my own history on to this thread even though I do find my own past to be enthralling.

What I can say to you is that you must always maintain a corner of yourself that is absolutely intellectually detached from your current array of follies. You must do this in order to survive and in order to profit, both intellectually and as an artist, from your current sensual and sexual activities.

I am suggesting that you do have artistic and intellectual underpinnings. I have read a number of your contributions to LBT and it seems to me that you are an intelligent and curious individual, and someone who does wish to engage in debate.

It strikes me that you are anxious to involve yourself in a more voluptuary and shallow world. To tell you the truth, I found that I learned a lot from my mis-spent years and I do not regret them.

I did, however, always look after myself: financially, intellectually, emotionally, and Healthwise. Now I am a charming old fart with a lot of scabrous stories to tell.

[babygrl1234 6]

Good to know things have changed for you so much in a month.

[lisalee 0]

Jodie, I have to jump in this thread and second BJean's impression that you may be struggling with a disorder called Borderline Personality Disorder, or at least have some of the symptoms.

This disorder is something that can be overcome or at least managed with therapy and sometimes medications. Sometimes people with BPD also have concurrent depression, which can make it much more difficult to deal with.

Some of the traits include:

1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.

2. Unstable and intense relationships

3. Potentially dangerous behavior eg. spending, sex, using drugs/alcohol

4. cutting

5. Emotional highs and lows that may occur all in one day

6. Off the wall displays of anger (out of nowhere)

......and others.

Many people with BPD are highly intelligent, witty and charming folks. That's why we want to help you here. You sound like a delightful person.

Get some professional help...at any cost. You spent $15,000 dollars on the band. Don't let it all go down the drain but stopping your life changing experience now.

Good luck girl!

[BJean 16]

Green we're on the edge of our seats in anticipation of you spilling your guts.