Had a rough day

[Melissa1234 69]

Went to an amusement park for the first time since I gained all my weight (5'4 250lbs) and it was awful. My feet ached horribly from walking and standing. I had several rides I barely fit in. I wanted to have a full on meltdown. My four yr old daughter had a blast. I was miserable. I NEED to get this weight off. Just another experience to remind me, despite all my fears, that I need this surgery. I'm currently waiting on approval. We're supposed to go to Disney before I get my surgery and I am so stressed about it. I seriously don't want to go. My mom planned the vacation and I don't want to let my little girl down by not going. What if I don't fit on the rides? God how humiliating, I just want to cry. I got heavy quickly from pregnancy then post partum depression which turned out to be bipolar and the meds made me gain soooo much weight. I just don't want to wait any longer. It's been 5 years I've been struggling with illness and weight gain, I want it to be over or I don't want to go on.

[maggie914 20]

Sweetie, you just wrote what I went through about 18 years ago when my precious daughter was just 4 years old. We live in San Antonio,Tx with 2 huge amusements parks (Sea World and Fiesta Texas). At that time of my miserable overweight life I was 240 lbs. and at 5'4" I wouldn't fit on most rides. The humiliation has not left my thoughts to this day. I asked my daughter just a minute ago if she remembers the trips to the parks when she was 4. Her reply was "Are you kidding, mama?" "No, I don't remember I was only 4." My point is this, although your mom means well and wants your baby (key word, she is still a baby) to experience the magistrate of Disney, she won't remember it until she's old enough to appreciate it. We as parents think we are making our little ones happy, when we are actually making ourselves feel like we are doing what good parents do. The stress of the heat, endless walking and misery for you is absolutely not taking your feelings into consideration. Talk this out with you mom and ask for next year when you are healthy, happy and can truly enjoy this experience with your daughter and mom. You HAVE to make her understand. I ended up in the hospital after one of our excursions. I never was never able to take my daughter and be at a healthy weight. But, my new life begins Aug . 19 and we will be at one of our parks to experience the beautiful Christmas festivities and she will remember...she'll be 23 and her Georgeous mama will be 62!!!!

[novaanne 0]

_{Melissa - Re: Disney...I used to live in So.CA and had passes to Disneyland. Even at my highest weight of 290 I could always fit on all the rides. The bars may not go down as far as everyone elses but they went down enough to hold me in. :wub:}

[Melissa1234 69]

Thank you both for the kind words. Thanks for the info novaanne. Makes me feel better about fitting on the rides. Yeah I should have a talk with my mom. She doesn't know how much I'm suffering with my weight because I try not to complain. When I told her yesterday my feet were hurting she was like "really?". She had no clue I wanted to cry they hurt so much. Carrying around 120 extra lbs is hard on the feet!