gain goal regain How was your 5:2 day today?

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Florinda I am sorry you are going through this....but don't be too hard on your boyfriend. I have noticed a chromosome related trait of unwillingness to communicate empathy. The next boyfriend will fail in a similar way... there are exceptions and it depends on the topic and circumstances but over the phone in a situation he knows about but hasn't really "lived" he doesn't stand a chance. That is what moms and sisters and girlfriends are for.

Beautiful photos!

My life has taken a turn toward the tragic with bettys brain cancer at center stage. I am proud of myself that I wake up every morning and ask myself if I feel the wolf....the horrible anxiety/mood stuff and I don't. I am calling old friends, extended family and enduring their guilt wracked voices and tears.....and while I feel it like a thousand cuts I am not depressed or spinning up...just even. (Betty is a raging alcoholic and most of us lost contact over the 7years since my sis died even though we all love Betty and promised my sis to watch out for her,that is the guilt part)

A week ago I ordered this little farm toy, before all hell broke loose, and it arrived on a hot day when I happened to be dressed a little daisy duke like...Haha. makes me so thrilled at my weight loss, maintenance and plastics!

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Photos...

My new farm toy and me

Dancing at one of these meetup events. Horrible picture of me, but it was just so fun!!! Yes, that was about the ratio of women to men. I felt pretty hot that 2 guys hit on me...LOL. I wasn't shopping though, just dancing and talking and having a great time. People said I was a good dancer but I look like a weirdo in this shot...LOL

[UK Cathy 977]

That 'farm toy' looks serious business.

[BrownDoesAll 409]

Coops. Your daughter sounds and looks like a beauty! Really loving that dress.

Globe. So wish there was something that can be done for u. We are here to listen and care. How much more time do u have to endure this craziness?

Sar how are u feeling? If u can drive u must be doing good

Day 3 and still low Low carbs.

[UK Cathy 977]

Wanda, still doing good, go you! Has it shown on the scales yet.

Im thinking of putting a b&b sign up as this week we had Kevin's cousin and husband arrive Wednesday, his sister yesterday and his brother and partner today. Cousin and brother only staying 1 night so it is good that the weather is good to dry all the bedding and towels. it is good to see people though.

Rip out and rebuild of bathrooms starts on Monday followed by kitchen on 18 August, by September we will be gorgeous but in the meantime my summer holiday will be spent making tea for workmen.

Glorious day here today but they say it is going to build up to be the hottest day of the year, must go and put sunscreen on. Thunderstorms to follow.

[Oregondaisy 2,021]

Sheryl, Are you going to go to one of those meet up events again and dance? I love to dance! I go out with friends to dance every tues night. I really have fun.

 

It would seem like a great time, without having to make commitments to anyone, just to go and  have fun.

 

Sarah, I sent you a message with my cell number. I hope we can get together.

[Georgia 2,908]

Coops, your daughter is a doll and the dress and "do" are beautiful. And girl, talk about toned!!! You look great! Globe, so sorry for all the mess you ar going through. THIS TOO SHALL PASS! I believe better things are ahead for you! Kim, how is your Mom? Sar, update pics? Sheryl, that's some "toy!" Ha! Wanda, go girl! I've got to get back on the carb watch. Fast! Cathy, can't wait to see pics of your new place! OregonD, have a great trip! Chimera, can you believe there are douch bags like that guy? Did good for a few days but can't seem to hold it steady. Got to, though. I do NOT want to regain all I've lost on 5:2!!

Edited July 19, 2014 by Georgia

[feedyoureye 3,087]

I just wrote a long post, and blam, gone! Hello all, long story short, mom went in and out of the hospital, is now in the stroke unit at a care home...not eating or drinking aynthing for 7 days now... per plan. I can't imagine she will last more than 2-3 days, most pass 2-3 days after stopping Water and nutrition through an IV. Mom is bringing us all together one last time...that has been very nice. I had comments for many of you... but not going back through the post to quote you... Chim, the whole rotten school think really stinks! It is a lot of work for sure...I'm off of teaching at the college level as well... I worked 7 hours out of class for every 4 hour class when I was teaching art history. That makes that $XX per hour lecture pay look a whole lot smaller. Sara, you are looking Maaahvolous! Sheryl, that farm equipment is fab! Coops, your daughter is lovely, and I want that dress! 

[UK Cathy 977]

FYE thinking of you as you spend this precious time with your mum.

[sarsar 824]

I just wrote a long post, and blam, gone! Hello all, long story short, mom went in and out of the hospital, is now in the stroke unit at a care home...not eating or drinking aynthing for 7 days now... per plan. I can't imagine she will last more than 2-3 days, most pass 2-3 days after stopping Water and nutrition through an IV. Mom is bringing us all together one last time...that has been very nice. I had comments for many of you... but not going back through the post to quote you... Chim, the whole rotten school think really stinks! It is a lot of work for sure...I'm off of teaching at the college level as well... I worked 7 hours out of class for every 4 hour class when I was teaching art history. That makes that $XX per hour lecture pay look a whole lot smaller. Sara, you are looking Maaahvolous! Sheryl, that farm equipment is fab! Coops, your daughter is lovely, and I want that dress!

Oh Kim, I am so very sorry. I wish I could be there to give you a shoulder to cry on and a big hug. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this tough time. Stay strong my friend. Enjoy these last few moments with your mom.

[Oregondaisy 2,021]

Kim, I'm so sorry, I remember when I moved my dad to the Hospice house. It was hard but it was best for him. I know you will cherish your time and memories with her.

Edited July 21, 2014 by Oregondaisy

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

I plan to go weekly on Friday but brain tumors and related nightmare has put a crimp in my fun.

I was supposed to "party" all day Saturday with mary and her childhood friend. We were gonna ride horses, go to a street fair listen to music, go out to dinner. Due to my living nightmare I got there after they had finished dinner. Bartender bought me a fancy cocktail -he is a sweetie - and I went home.

Steven came by and we talked. I don't know why but I didn't like his company.

it was weird, I didn't want to be with him even though I would tell you I love him I was not feeling it. I am just focused on family and details you all don't want to hear about and tired of his latest self created crisis. Sigh. I may give up on men entirely. Never mind me...exhausted and drained so just venting.

I love my life and sad Betty had a shitty one is now dying.

Sheryl, Are you going to go to one of those meet up events again and dance? I love to dance! I go out with friends to dance every tues night. I really have fun.

It would seem like a great time, without having to make commitments to anyone, just to go and have fun.

Sarah, I sent you a message with my cell number. I hope we can get together.

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

And I never did get dinner on Saturday. I had a Protein Drink this morning. Need to watch appetite because under eating triggers bad emotional and brain state.

[Globetrotter 1,340]

Sheryl, undereating most DEFINITELY triggers psychosis (for lack of a better term), imho. To the point where it has made me wonder if the brain chemistry of overeaters would show that we actually lack particular chemicals and thus have self-medicated with food all our lives, trying to make up for that deficit. If you don't feel like eating, I'm not going to tell you to eat, BUT perhaps up the Vitamin B12 and D3 and magnesium chelate? just a thought...

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Made myself eat a small lunch. I learned my lesson. ..you have to force yourself to eat or risk feeling even worse.

Was at hospital this morning. She is better today but it's all hard. My boys are both down too. They are trying to help me and it feels good to know they really care. I want to protect them but they are adults and need to learn what decent people do which is "man up" when life goes to hell.

Yesterday a childhood friend of my deceased sis came crying to me hysterically. " I can't do this again". I told her we have to. But it's exactly how I feel. I hugged her alot.

Side note, it's been different immersed in lesbians..haha

The issue with Steven is he does care but he's so damn f*d up that it's always about him. He doesn't even realize it but sometimes there are bigger issues then his ongoing drama. I got pissed over his self centered bull, but didn't want to argue so didn't say a thing and just sent him home. He took it hard. I felt bad this morning because he was actually trying. But...basically I don't really care in the larger scheme of things.