gain goal regain How was your 5:2 day today?

[UK Cathy 977]

LV glad to see you are back in contact, FYE I'm off to Portugal -Europe might seem an exotic location to you ladies but don't forget I live in the UK. This must be my 5th trip to Portugal we find it so relaxing there and relaxation is just what my husband needs at the moment. GT I understand completely about missing your dad, mine died when I was 6 (RTA- hit and run) and there is not a day go by when I don't miss him and I'm 54 now. I don't know about addictions and the relationship to weight but I do think that all large people have some sort of history that affects our weight and we have to deal with that as well as the physical weight loss to move forward. I still haven't dealt with mine yet but I do know that I have to.

Have a lovely weekend ladies and I will log my weight before I leave tomorrow.

[Globetrotter 1,340]

And Swizzly, I think yes I can see a difference. My only concern is that I can feel when it "kicks in" and when it "wears off". I take one pill daily, first thing in the morning (8am). By about 10 I am cheerful kaughing, the comraderie in the office is flowing, etc. But somewhere around 6:30pm I can feel a grey fog approaching, my thoughts become a bit more ... hopeless. I start to dwell. I know that Zoloft has a titer effect, that it has to build up in your system, I have now only been on it exactly 4 weeks so, we'll see.

[Chimera 644]

Just wanted to wish you all a good night and sending positive thoughts to those who are having a rough time. I struggle with the same. CGJane - you look fabulous! If you look that good right after surgery I can only imagine how great things will be when you are healed. sleep tight - don't let the bedbugs bite

[UK Cathy 977]

CGJ forgot to add that your pics look amazing, so jealous of that flat tum. If that is you swollen what will it look like in a few weeks!!

[coops 1,790]

I was gonna pop on and have a moan about the ole bounce returning, but after reading all the lateset posts, my moaning had been diluted into oblivion!

Hugs to all of you... your stories are heart breaking and kinda makes me feel so very lucky and blessed to have a life where major addictions have not been on my radar. I am lucky. Thanks for reminding me x

[Georgia 2,908]

struggling with strong strong appetite. I am so far doing very well at eating protein' date=',, but need to go shopping to get veggies. I feel like I stretched my stomach or something I know my body is working hard on healing but crap I cant eat like this and sit around. well, i need to sit around and rest... so i cant eat like this.[/quote']

 

Ask Coops too. I think she said she was hungrier also.

[Georgia 2,908]

this was just a few days post op so swollen and uneven....but i am pleased so far

 

Wow! Impressed. You don't look very swollen. And the boobs are perfect size. You are very brave!!

[clk 3,519]

CGJ, you look AWESOME! I can't believe you look so good so soon after surgery. Congrats on being back in the states. Don't sweat the appetite. Plain and simple, you're healing and your body needs fuel to do it. Up those Protein Shakes, maybe add in some smoothies and get online with Peapod or something and have them deliver you some veggies!

OD, good on you for the cake, and happy belated birthday.

Cathy, enjoy the trip! Relaxation sounds so wonderful - what's it like to relax again?

Laura - I am glad you posted. I know we've talked about it but those things that make us who we are (including the fat people with disordered eating we used to be) are all still there. And it's a challenge at times. I'm sorry about your brother. It's inadequate and doesn't express it completely but it just plain sucks.

Hugs to GT and Cathy on missing their parents.

Georgia, thank you especially for your post. We have a very troubled child (my stepdaughter) and it's been a long four years with her in and out of rehab, in and out of suicide watch...both my husband and I have buried children at one point and it's been so incredibly defeating to see how all four parents are absolutely unable to help this girl. We're half prepared for that call one day that she either succeeded or that she overdosed. I hope that some day she can be clean and sober. It's so hard to match up the girl we see now with the incredibly bright, optimistic and ambitious girl she was just five years ago. It's heartbreaking.

As for me, this is also a hard time of the year, which just feeds into that negative cycle. My daughter would be fourteen years old at the beginning of November. From 1 September to 16 January is what my husband and I call the down time of the year. Everyone else is thrilled with the holidays and family gatherings and we're "celebrating" birthdays and death anniversaries for children that aren't with us. It sucks.

On a more positive note I'm down a touch on the scale. Not much but it's a start. I know it's not in line with 5:2, so if ya'll want to give me the boot I understand, but I'm doing no days over 1,000 calories right now. My feast days are 1,000 calories, give or take, and my fasts will be 500 calories. I really feel like I don't shed weight well until I'm under 900 calories a day, but I figured I'd give this a shot. I expect I'll see a larger drop immediately out of the gate and then it will taper, but hopefully, HOPEFULLY it will be something I can maintain. I only have seven measly pounds. I really want them gone.

Then I need to focus on toning because I've got a gold sparkly gown to wear next year (unless she changes her mind) and I'd hate to look floppy in it.

Oh, and thanks for the compliments on my little Shevi. People don't believe me but honestly, she's harder as a single than my twins ever were at this age. I'm hoping that means she'll be an agreeable toddler!

Best to everyone. Hugs all around. No fast today but I got my feast planned to the letter so I'm going to stick to the program and prove I'm in charge of my diet.

~Cheri

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Cowgirl! Flat Stomach!! ..... and if those boobs are small, I hate to hear what mine would be called.... Your tum area looks so smooth. Awesome. Congrats to you my dear, you look fantastic.

 

Its nice having a chat group to air your feeling, thanks for being so giving, by sharing and listening.

[No game 14,437]

GT. I read your post and it wasn't till the end that I realized that at some point I was holding my breath... I understand everything that you said and are feeling..

Clk, I'm so glad to see you back my friend. Please do stick around as you can see we all have some ups and some downs!

OMG Shevi is so cute!

Coops.

What's going on? Nothing is to "small" not to vent about if you need too!

[M2G 1,836]

Just popping in for a quick (((((BIG GROUP HUG))))) cos you all are THE AWESOME. LV, glad you came back out of The Abyss (I know it well, I'm so sorry). OD, happy b-day!! Cheri, your daughter's sweet face made my day, what a doll!! CJ, you look amazing already -- I'm seriously impressed with how that turned out, what a trip. Cathy, glad you were home when you sharted, what a nightmare.

I'm still sitting with three extra kg +/- a few hundred grams here and there. Only fasted once this week cos of all the work/social activities. I keep thinking life will ease up again, but going into the holidays will be one cocktail party after another work-wise. I'm going to have to pick some carefully where I can just have a glass of water... First-world problems, lordy.

ETA: I forgot to say, GT -- you "sound" so much better now, even with the health challenges. I think the meds are really helping, yes? You seem so much less...Abyss-y, do you feel it too? <3

Just copied this post because as usual Dee said was I was "thinking" !!!

Love the baby picture, love the nekkid look-ma-no-more-skin picture (HOW AWESOME IS THAT??) glad LV is back with us, and like Coops the piddly stuff that I deal with isn't as big of a deal when you put it side-by-side with death, addiction, etc. Right now my struggle is that I cannot seem to keep myself in line. Seems "toeing" the line so-to-speak for my 3rd surgiversary visit has somehow unfurled into me just not being (or feeling) very much in control. I need to sort that out, but meanwhile, my kids are now on fall break and I'm waiting this VERY second to see if they have safely arrived in CA to visit my dad and his wife. This is their first "solo" trip, we took them to airport watched them climb on the plane and the rest of the week they are with family between CA and AZ. They are 11 and 12 and thank goodness they have each other. Today was bittersweet. I saw that cute baby Shevi's face (not sure I got that spelled right) and it's hard to believe mine are old enough to attempt a brave flight by themselves. Cool, but also sad they are growing up so much. ===Update: girls have arrived safely at their destination! Phew!===

Anyway, gotta get my head back in the right place, it's going to be HARD with the girls gone this week because it means we'll probably eat out more than usual. The leftovers are awesome though!

Edited October 27, 2013 by M2G

[feedyoureye 3,087]

going to a party tonight with fine finger food.... did NOT plan for it, so will plan to throw that PM out the window, and get back on the horse tomorrow. Theres always fast on monday!

[No game 14,437]

My name is Cheri and I'm a food addict. I'm posting here because I just had a stick of celery and am just under my 1,000 calories for the day but want to eat! I'm hoping that browsing the threads and responding here on VST will help me out.

I am not even hungry! I'm not. I just got into that bad (bad, BAD) habit of nighttime snacking and I'm having trouble breaking it. As soon as I come downstairs to watch a show or relax at night I feel like I need food in my hand.

So, I'll just sit here with residual celery breath and my jug o Water and hope that typing and sipping keep me on track. I know that if I just make it three or four days (nights) without the snack I'll be fine and it will be easier to say no in the future.

I was so defeated today - I broke out all of last year's sweaters and half of them are too small on me! Not flattering at all. It's amazing that when I was plus there was about a twenty pound leeway I had there before clothes got too tight or loose. Now just seven pounds can make the difference. Sucks!

More motivation to skip the Snacks, stick to the two fasts and my lower calorie goals, I guess. Bleh. I wish losing weight were easier! Don't we all?

~Cheri

f**k! I tried to answer and I deleted your post!

Fire the moderator laura! She cannot be trusted!!!

I was trying to day you are not alone Cheri. It's been quite a week huh?

Heavy stuff going on for all of us.

Hang in there...

[clk 3,519]

You're fired!

Just teasing. It's been rough for a bunch of us, yeah. Here's hoping there's sunshine, rainbows and unicorns standing by for next week. I need some damn sparkles in my life!

And yes, typing on VST kept my fingers and mind busy long enough that the desire to eat is pretty well gone. Phew. I'm going to do this. I am going to lose these stupid pounds and I am going to get back to goal.

~Cheri

[No game 14,437]

You're fired! Just teasing. It's been rough for a bunch of us' date=' yeah. Here's hoping there's sunshine, rainbows and unicorns standing by for next week. I need some damn sparkles in my life! And yes, typing on VST kept my fingers and mind busy long enough that the desire to eat is pretty well gone. Phew. I'm going to do this. I am going to lose these stupid pounds and I am going to get back to goal. ~Cheri[/quote']

Lol!

I suck! I'm just glad I could click back and copy it before it was gone into oblivion!!!

Lucky you my witching hour is coming up soon...

It's 7:00 here...

Oh and maybe I'll put my rainbows and unicorn costume on soon