Update and Some Questions

[xlil_misfitx 0]

I contacted Wood County Hospital for my consultation and they wouldn't even see me since insurance said I would need a 12 month documented weight loss program. I guess 13+ years isn't enough for them. Going 12 more months getting my hopes up is something i'm really not sure i'm willing to do. So, for about a month I gave up hope that i'd ever not be fat.

Earlier though I contacted Ohio State University, but when they said they'd reply in 2 weeks and they didn't I lost hope in them too. (I'm a pessimist if you couldn't tell). Yesterday (4 weeks after I contacted them) I recieved a packet in the mail telling me I had been approved for the inital consultation.

This is where I get really confused. In the packet they talk about how I might need to do a 12 week diet program with one of their doctors. They also say i need to get records from my family doctor (who for lack of a better term is an idiot. My mom tried to talk to him about my depression and he gave me study tips for school. WTF?!?). The packet is really confusing. I've been set up for initial psych and behavioral appointments for the 19th. I have to wake up at 5 am to get their on time *shudder* (I'm not a morning person either). I'm really kinda nervous to see what they say about this supervised diet thing.

Sooo. Im wondering:

-Has anyone on here gone to OSU for their surgery and stuff?

-If so, can you help me understand it a little better?

-Should I lose hope again? I really don't think my emotions can handle a year of dieting only to lose just enough weight to drop under "dangerous weight" so I woldn't be able to get the surgery.

-Anyone get around the supervised diet thing?

-And if any one has anything else they can add to help me it'd be greatly appriciated. Between being jobless and forced to move back in with my parents I'm so lost. Merton's theory of anomie is alive and well.

Thank You for reading and commenting in advance!