Not sure whats going on...

[shellsheck 11]

I was sleeved on May 13th and I have done great till this past week. It seems like I am fighting myself on what I know is right for me. I have ate things from a phase that I'm not on yet (my doctor has 6 phases and I am on 4). Tonight I went to Taco Bell and got a chicken quesadilla and ate 3 of the 4 triangles. I thought I was going to die bc it hurt so bad! I have wanted soda all week and I've been soda free since Feb. I don't understand why I am feeling or acting on these impulses. I have noticed that I am picking at things outside of my 3 meals a day. Today I felt like I was starving and nothing satisfied my hunger. I am feeling a bit down and afraid my surgery is going to be a fail bc I messed it up.

[No game 14,437]

I worry when I read about other people eating to the point of pain.. Because its what I did and still have the tendency to want to do sometimes.

food addiction is a strong force getting the sleeve alone is not the answer.

I would ask you to please find a counselor that deals with addiction and binging issues.

I want you to know that there are a lot of people here that have had these same struggles but it can be beat and you can learn why you have these behaviors and work in changing them.

[ChristineR 128]

Be stronger than the food. You can do it! Maybe avoid those places until you have better control? *HUGS*

[ElaineB 207]

Shell, pain is a warning. I just read a post recently where someone mentioned a death bc the person ate a large amount and ruptured the stomach. Be careful. That scares me. I'm pre-op so I'm not much practical help, but I know that I eat and have cravings that have nothing to do with physical hunger. That's one thing we have to work through and find replacements for. This is kind of dorky, but ive been journaling. Im writing down replacement behaviors, coping strategies, non food pleasures, things like that.

I don't think any of this means you will fail. These must be struggles many go through. Your sleeve is obviously working bc it caused you pain. Just be careful bc there is a huge suture line and my understanding is that a leak or rupture is a worry not just immediately after. Hugs.

[fattie 53]

Try and find healthy alternatives to the food you are craving. Instead of chicken quesedilla (sp?) try the chicken tortilla Soup. There are always healthier alternatives to everything out there. Look under the nutrition forum on here and there are alot of recipes. They even have cookbooks for wls.

[T'snewstart 251]

Hi ShellSheck,

I feel your struggle.... Honestly I agree.with with Laura-ven it is a great idea to find some professional help to process the emotions you are struggling with. Eating until you feel.pain is not good... BUT you already know that..... For sure you are learning your limits. Does that make you a failure? Of course not..... However, if you do that repeatedly then it becomes dangerous. I wish you well and hope you come through this struggle soon.

[Arts137 1,811]

I was sleeved on May 13th and I have done great till this past week. It seems like I am fighting myself on what I know is right for me. I have ate things from a phase that I'm not on yet (my doctor has 6 phases and I am on 4). Tonight I went to Taco Bell and got a chicken quesadilla and ate 3 of the 4 triangles. I thought I was going to die bc it hurt so bad! I have wanted soda all week and I've been soda free since Feb. I don't understand why I am feeling or acting on these impulses. I have noticed that I am picking at things outside of my 3 meals a day. Today I felt like I was starving and nothing satisfied my hunger. I am feeling a bit down and afraid my surgery is going to be a fail bc I messed it up.

I also suggest reading Laura-Ven again. If you eat to pain, and do it again KNOWING what's going to happen, you may be dealing with issues that the 'sleeve' cannot help with. People CAN 'defeat' the Gastric Sleeve. Those who do should not be surprised at the result (which does not include the expected weight loss). Please, please please work on the head issues. I want you to win!!!