scared of failure

[bulldoglover2013 15]

I have heard a lot about them :-) honestly I haven't meet with my surgeon since I started this, the insurance company was a big pain, good thing I am a persistent person, I can also feel how excited everyone is :-)

[Arts137 1,811]

I have also been worrying about failing as well. I finally passed all the hurdles and have my surgery date (July 1!) and suddenly I feel very ambivalent. I have Kaiser and there is a preop diet I am supposed to be on. I did okay while I was going through the classes and my meetings with my NUT and psych and then as soon as I got my date, I can't seem to stick with it. Has anyone else had this problem? My surgeon has warned me that he will cancel the surgery if I don't stay at my initial goal weight. And, of course, I have put on a couple of pounds. My husband is supportive but he is worried that I may sabotage myself. I do enjoy good food and wine and he is afraid that I am going to find the post op diet too restrictive. I turn 50 next month and I want my next 50 years to be healthy ones. I am over 100lbs overweight, but am fortunate to only be prediabetic and have sleep apnea. I really don't want to wait until I have more health issues. But part of me is apathetic. Has anyone else had these conflicting feelings? How did you deal with this? I would really appreciate any help on this. Thanks!

It sounds as if you are 'mourning' food, which is common. I am halfway though my two-week pre-surgical liquid diet. It's hard to get started, but if you CAN be strict with yourself for 3 or 4 days, it gets easier... If you can't, you'll have to restart the 3/4 day 'detox' period over and over again!

[bulldoglover2013 15]

Mourn food, never a truer statement, food has been my friend and ally for over 20 years now, I am glad that we are parting ways but am scared if I can really make a permanent change but I am determined to make that change :-)

[Chinadawn 3]

Mourning is exactly what it is. Thank you so much for pointing that out. It really helped me look at things differently this AM. I am back to being excited again!