Feel to Fragile to Share

[WeeWers 48]

I admire those of you who share how you are losing weight -- in trying to use your personal story to help educate others.

Me? I'm too much of a coward. I *know* there are people in my life who would strongly disapprove, and I'm just not emotionally up to their negative comments.

I have an auto-immune disease that has me home-bound. I'm on strong narcotics for the pain. Many days I can't walk across the room without crying -- my feet are so bad. The disease attacks your joints and internal organs. Only times I get out of the house are to doc apps and then I have to be in a wheel-chair -- which I've found so humiliating. I couldn't even get the regular size wheel-chair. They had to order an "extra wide" one. My disease makes me unable to stand for more than about a minute to a minute and a half. So showering is out. I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaay to huge to get into our tiny bath-tub (I'm 305 and climbing) and so the only way I can get a little clean is for my beloved husband to give me a bed bath.

My self-care is abominable. It's too shameful to share.

My life is a postage stamp and I live in my Lazy-Boy chair. My poor husband has to do everything. I feel so badly for burdening him this way.

My weight greatly exacerbates my illness. I have so much banking on me doing this right. I do have a lot of fear that my gluttony will win out over the feeling of full.

Thank you so much for listening, I de-railed my own topic didn't I !! lol

Bless you,

WeeWers

[JeffNNJ 111]

That sucks. I'm really sorry. However, have you read the posts by hundreds of people on here who have all sorts of maladies remedied by losing weight? I am not a doctor so I'm not sure if the surgery will help with all of what ails you but it certainly can't hurt. I was 260 lbs prior to surgery with no co morbidities. My only weight related issue were chronically sore ankles which I attributed to the physiology of how I walked. I was wrong and now that I'm down 60+ lbs, no more sore ankles. I did this because my parents were both obese for most of their lives and suffered many illnesses because of it. sleep apnia, high blood pressure, diabetes, heart and kidney disease and shortness of breath were all genetically pre determind for me if i didn't make a change. Once you have your surgery and you start to lose weight I guaranty that, in the very least, you'll feel better. Probably a lot better. Promise.

[Vixynne 695]

*hugs*

Holy guacamole. You have so many challenges and struggles to face every day, and I think you're truly a warrior for facing them--even with fear, feelings of sadness, all the gloom that follows many of us around when we feel bad for being overweight.

You should be proud. Many others would simply curl into a ball and stop functioning completely. Fragile? I think you're stronger than you realize, emotionally and mentally, if not physically (yet)!

Where are you in your WLS journey? If you're just starting out, believe me, this board can be a source of comfort and inspiration--and one day soon, you will be telling a success story that will inspire someone else who is feeling very breakable. Hang in there; you're not alone!

[SmilingEyes 29]

I am proud that you have pressed forward... keep doing it and you will see improvements! Keep up the good work! and Thanks for sharing.

[JMarshall 352]

I have an auto immune disease ( MS) and I can say that losing weight has helped a lot with mobility and just my quality of life. Things can only get better for you . Good luck !