I just want to eat

[landen24 5]

I miss food, it all looks good, I can only have boring, not so good foods. My surgery was 11 days ago...I think I might be regretting it

[WorkItOutWoman 185]

Completely Normal. It gets better just trust the process.

[rewind 39]

I am ten weeks out. Week 1-4 were really hard for me. I wanted food. I wanted to eat. Just something. I know exactly how you feel. I HATED the pureed stage,and even the soft foods were awful. They only thing that seemed like real food, was quiche. But that went down kinda hard because I ate too fast. Still, it was good.

On thing I did early on, was get a calzone from a pizza shop. I could have ricotta cheese, so I just ripped that thing open, right in the car, and slowly sucked on the ricotta cheese...and maybe a pepperoni.... It was so good and I have no regrets. I gave the bread, and actually most of the calzone, to my dog.

Another thing I did, and I'm not suggesting this....is one day I caved in and bought a small bag of Doritos. I sat in my car and chewed them and spit them out. I just needed the salt, the cheese, the crunch, the taste. I'm not proud of this but it was what I could do to get over the urge, and not ruin myself with binging. Again, I'm not recommending this, but for me it worked because I got over the urge, worked through my choices, motivation, and actions. I have not done that again. I guess it was part of my learning curve. I'm sorry if this seems gross to any readers. I am being painfully honest.

It will get better. Just hang on. I think for some of use those early weeks are harder, more challenging. I threw up a lot, challenged my sleeve, and was miserable. But now I have learned and have grown to respect this opportunity. I still make mistakes, but not so severe. And since I'm cleared for all foods, I can feel more satisfied with my choices. It is an individual journey. Best of luck...and I'm sure you will feel better soon, and it will all seem worth it.

[lilbearzmom 584]

Oh my goodness, you're preaching to the choir! I was fairly depressed after surgery, wanting to be able to eat anything other than shakes or mushies. It gets lots better. At 5 months out I am eating anything and everything, sensibly. Imagine, if you would, that I was sleeved on 12/17/12 and had to witness my family eating Christmas dinner!!!! Looking forward to next December when I can join in, again, sensibly...you're normal.

[FishingNurse 1,210]

You will eat pretty much anything you want it moderation at some point. Don't worry. You are losing big time weight right now. It seems hard now but it will be soooo worth it. Hang in there!!!

[landen24 5]

Thank you everyone I sure hope it does get easier, but OMG quiche sounds good! I think I will try it

[dreamerfalava 6]

Oh my goodness' date=' you're preaching to the choir! I was fairly depressed after surgery, wanting to be able to eat anything other than shakes or mushies. It gets lots better. At 5 months out I am eating anything and everything, sensibly. Imagine, if you would, that I was sleeved on 12/17/12 and had to witness my family eating Christmas dinner!!!! Looking forward to next December when I can join in, again, sensibly...you're normal.[/quote'] lol I know it sucked to watch them I was on Clear Liquids for Christmas...surgery was 12/27

[BloomingFaith 29]

rewind, I totally appreciate your post and your honesty!!! I am not sleeved yet so I learn about experience through others and this forum. You said you threw up a lot. WHat caused it? Was it you ate too much and it was painful so you had to make yourself throw up? (Happens a lot with banders) Was it you drank something gross like a bad Liquid Protein and it made you throw up? Was it just regular food but your tummy wasn't ready for it? I think the chew and spit it out, is a great idea. To get over that wanting to chew something feeling.

[rewind 39]

BloomingFaith.... I think my biggest problem has been eating too fast, and the bites of food have been too big as well. Those first weeks were hard. For decades I ate what I wanted, when I wanted....and surgery does not cure an eating disorder. So I resisted foods I could have. Don't care for egg salad, cottage cheese, beans....so tried to find other foods I could tolerate. I stayed close to recommendations, maybe straying slightly.

When I was cleared for soft foods, I quickly found disappointment. More of the same junk....so I bought Soups and stews and pulsed them for a mili-second so they were not pureed. Quiche was my friend. I have always been a FAST eater and my self-discipline failed me. I learned the hard way, that pressure in the chest meant, "STOP EATING IMMEDIATELY". I thought it meant I was at a new stage and that was a normal feeling, so kept eating another small bite or two.... WRONG!! So a few trips to the bathroom and I finally learned. But I still kept screwing up....

For me, the eagerness to finally eat real food has been a challenge. Sooo happy to have something normal, continued me on the track to fast eating and throwing up. Always remember, when you feel a sensation, ie; pain in chest, salivating, burping..... stop eating immediately. If I start spitting, it's coming up. If you don't remember this, you will likely throw up. It's the mental piece that is hard. You can have the food.... you want the food.... you deserve the food.... but you may need to also remember you can have it later.

Now, three months out, I am doing better (no throwing up today!) because I pull up the stop watch on my phone and eat a tiny bite every minute ...sometimes waiting two or three minutes. I may leave half of my meal in another room....go to the bathroom....let the cat out.... to kill time because the timer has to be over 20 minutes when I am finished eating. If I sit with the whole meal in front of me, I am tempting fate in a bad way.

This whole experience is a huge drill in self-discipline.

Thanks for understanding the Dorito episode. I just had to have them. And honestly, I feel for me it was the right decision. I was two weeks out, and did not want to binge. But that behavior satisfied me, right or wrong, and I got passed it and survived. Many have not agreed, but this is surely an individual journey.

Good luck to you.... and ask all your questions. This is a good site with lots of caring people.

[SanDiegoVSGGal 4]

Oh I have been there and done that. I HATED the whole liquid thing as I get really bad headaches if I don't eat. The first day I called the wonderful nurse that helps us all through and she talked me through it. I was two weeks on shakes prior to surgery not to mention the couple of weeks after. I really came to detest shakes, still haven't really had one since. It does get better, really it does. I looked around and found a few good weight loss surgery sites that helped. There is a GREAT blog called "The world according to egg face" she loves to cook and makes some fabulous receipes. One that I did after surgery and on to soft foods was this ricotta bake which was yummy. I also did lots of sugar free Jello puddings with plain protien powder added. It will get better swear it does. I am 18 months out and struggling and felt such freedom when I came to this site. Keep on keeping on you got it!

[landen24 5]

@rewind did you make the quiche or buy it? Do you have a recipe?

[rewind 39]

@landen24; I made the quiche. Nothing fancy, you can find many recipies on line and tweak it to your liking.

I use the store bought pie crusts.... the Pillsbury refrigerator ones.

Because I was on a soft diet, I pulverized 6 pieces of bacon and 2 or 3 oz of sausage in my mini processor. I put that mix in the bottom of the pie crust. If you like onions, pulverize a few of them too. Then I add cheese, whatever I have around my house. Typically it's cheddar, mozzarella, pepperjack.. You're going to want about three cups total, shredded. Then I mix 4 or 5 eggs with a cup of half and half, with salt and pepper, and pour that over the cheese. Bake at 350 for an hour. If you use those pre-made pie crusts in the tins, it will be done in about 45 min as they are smaller. You also will need a little less of the ingredients.

It's probably a basic recipe. But simple enough for my stomach to handle. Be careful about eating the crust. I didn't eat any from the bottom, but did sneak a piece from the crust part...so good but bad for us!!

[chinamama 104]

Read somewhere might have been eggface to take philo dough or egg roll wrappers and tuck them down in cupcake pans instead of crust. Pour your quiche mixture over and bake. Cuts A LOT of calories carbs and fat.

[chinamama 104]

Read somewhere might have been eggface to take philo dough or egg roll wrappers and tuck them down in cupcake pans instead of crust. Pour your quiche mixture over and bake. Cuts A LOT of calories carbs and fat and makes it a great portion size for us.

[chinamama 104]

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