am i the only big fat failure here?

susie77453 · May 6, 2013

hi All,

I can search through zillions of success stories on here but not a lot of unsuccesful ones which is making me wonder if i'm the only one??

I was sleeved back in September and it all went textbook perfect. I had zero issues with recovery and was not in any pain or anything. I was getting used to eating small amounts but did struggle to figure out how much was enough. At first i was worried that i was eating too little, then confused because the amounts i could get in were not at all consistent. My last appointment was in November and i was told i'd lost 20kg which they said was a bit slow and could have been due to me previously being banded.

Now i can eat a regular sized meal before i feel any signs of fullness. I haven't felt hungry since the surgery but i always feel like eating which i know is in my head. I can feel myself putting the weight back on and it's severely depressing. I dont weigh myself so i dont know exactly how much has come back. I had an appointment with my surgeon/dietician in march but i cancelled because i was so embarrassed.

I'm feeling myself slip back into hopelessness. i dont know what to do. I got the surgery as a tool to help me get this weight off but without any encouragement ie. weightloss, i am slipping further into this depression and picking up old habbits of takeaway and junk food. I just dont know what to do. When i was banded everything worked so great. I lost about 50kg and felt fantastic. It's the only time in my life when i felt like i was actually living. Then the slip changed everything. It was torture not being able to eat anything but slider foods and feeling and seeing it all come back on. So then i think the sleeve will change everything and get me back to that happy place/weight and instead I'm feeling more hopless and lost than ever and like such a failure.

Is there anyone else out there having problems with their weight loss/food intake? I'd love to hear from you and know that it's not just me.

kim0079 · May 6, 2013

I have not had my surgery but has taken an aweful lot of will power doing first week of intense Optifast diet (lost 4kg in this week). I won't lie it's been SUPER hard, but I'm stubborn and will do this.

I researched before I choose on surgery and read a common factor for people who have been previously banded and then sleeved is that they loose ALOT slower. This is what I constantly read. I'm seing a fantastic psychologist working on mindfulness and emotional eating, might be an idea for extra help and support?

You have come this far and 20 kilos is still awesome, don't compare to others even though u so desperately want better results, our bodies are all different and we all have our own barriers. Keep at it and stay strong. All the best