My Life as a Bandster

[bandiva 0]

You all are absolutely right, the emotions are a mess. I am fine all day at work, but at bedtime I seem to fall apart. The dr gave me some pills for anxiety...it appears he knew what he was doing. I took one last night, after having a big huge ugly cry, and fell asleep quickly. I think I am just going to take one every night this week. Apparently I am more anxious than I realized.

It is great having the support here. I have learned so much. I can't imagine going through this without this lifeline...Thanks again.

I am down another pound today. Have a long day at work today, we are doing a spa party tonight for a group of massage therapy students. Should be really fun and positive. (Its the bridal party ones that stress me out.) I nested on Sunday, cleaned closets, went grocery shopping etc. All in all, I am pretty much ready to go.

Well off to another skinny day. I have lost 12 pounds so far...2 more to go before surgery. Big hug everyone.

[Yoda 0]

You're doing AWESOME Bandiva....hang in there and keep up the great work! You'll make your two pounds!!!

Hey man......your job sounds so neat!!!! What do you do in the spa exactly?

[kwhenrykerr 0]

You will love TJ, Mexico is fun. Myself, mygirl and her mother all walked all over after being banded. The walking was a big help in recovery. Have fun and loose the fat too.

[argon 3]

The dr gave me some pills for anxiety...it appears he knew what he was doing. I took one last night, after having a big huge ugly cry, and fell asleep quickly.

Was it Ativan/lorazepam, by chance? I'd loooove some-a that!

[bandiva 0]

You guessed it Argon, I think I will take one tonight before the crying freaking out stage instead of after.

Had a few more calories today than I should have but no big deal. It is windy and raining cats and dogs here...hope the ferries are fine on Saturday or I may try swimming over...have to take advantage of my bouyancy right now cause it won't be that way for long!

G' night everyone...happy thoughts.

[bandiva 0]

Had a great sleep, no tears. I have a relatively easy day today. I took the afternoon off to get my 'hair-did'. So, I just have to work this morning and this evening.

My DH put up the tree and decorated it last night. I nearly had a heart attack! I am very proud of him, he usually just sits around and lets me do everything. I came down on him a little hard on sunday. Told him he always ruins christmas for me becuase he doesn't participate, doesn't want to go shopping, play carols, etc...he just opens presents. No wonder he loves christmas! I guess he must have listened becuase I was in for a shock when I came home last night. I felt guilty for 'blaming' him for my christmas stress, but now I feel better about it. Maybe it was something that needed to be said. He is so sweet to me, I am all mushy in love.

Pre op diet is going pretty good. I am going to try to stick to just fluids come friday. Just want to be as prepared as I can for post op.

Have a super fabulous day everyone..TTYL. Thanks again.

[green 6]

Was it Ativan/lorazepam, by chance? I'd loooove some-a that!

Mmmm....Ativan.... So relaxing.

[bandiva 0]

Yoda, you were asking about my job. I do mostly facials, amssage, waxing etc. I love my job. I really enjoy each and every day. I am very thankful for that and I think it is why I feel like I can do this. In my past life, I worked with urban land economics. Not too exciting and everyone was always mad at me or wanted something from me. It paid the bills so I could raise my boys. Now I work for money and for fun and it feels great!

kwhenrykerr - did you say shopping??? That sounds fun. I would really like to spoil myself. Any suggestions?

Argon and Green...had a big fight today with ICBC (provincial vehicle insurance). Basically they are licensed to scam...(in my opinion). Just got home so I took an ativan to ease the pain of ICBC.....just waiting for it to kick in. I usually don't take drugs, but then I asked myself why not? If it makes this time easier then who cares, it is only for the short term. Wish I could share, but I will send you happy relaxed thoughts!

3 more sleeps till I leave.

[green 6]

Green sez thanx for the happy relaxed thoughts, Bandiva.:grouphug:

[Wheezy 0]

3 more ZZZZZZZZZZZZs Good luck Bandiva

[bandiva 0]

Hello everyone. I am almost all packed. We are having a storm here so I think I may take a ferry friday night insted of Sat morning just so I know that I am on the mainland and can drive to the airport.

I went out for a last supper tonight. I really took my time and tasted the food, and made sure I didn't eat all of one single thing. I even ordered cheesecake and had about 2 bites. I don't feel like I cheated, cause I didn't give in to a moment of weakness, I did this with every intention of doing it. It actually was a very good exercise for me mentally. It's like I said, OK, here we go, but before we do, here is some love. OMG, I just realized what I typed. Food=love...gonna have to process that thought for a few days. Think I might need to break out the yellow pages before this whole ordeal is over.

If you don't hear from me for a few days it is because I have left for Mexico. I will have lots of tales to tell when I get back. Thanks for all your support. I feel so confident going into this and I know a big part of that is the information and support I have recieved from you all. xox

Wish me luck!

[Yoda 0]

Sending good vibes and lots of luck your way Bandiva!!!

You are smart to take the ferry today and get on the mainland.

You are so prepared and you will do GREAT!!!! Enjoy your trip to Mexico; take care of yourself post-op and let us know how you are when you get back.

See ya on the other side of bandland!!

:gluck:

:welldone2:

[Irishmist 0]

Good luck Bandiva, lots of hugs coming your way :welldone2: :success1: :hug: and best wishes.

Maria

[CLOE 0]

Bandiva, have a wonderful trip, your surgery will be fine, soooo exciting!!

And it also sounds like you have a wonderful guy on your hands, mines the same, you don't think there listening, then bam, they come through!!

Thoughts are with you!!

[DeltaDawn 0]

Good luck Bandiva!!

sorry I haven't posted before. I know you will do great!!

Dawn

Banded April 4th, 2006

Montreal, Quebec

Fill June 9th, 2006