My last days of food...

[Jessica H 79]

In 2 days, I'll start my 2 week liquid diet. I've spent the last week eating and drinking whatever sounded good or could get my hands on. I'm fearful of never having some foods again, due to tolerance or texture. And I know I can't (or not supposed to) have soda ever again. My Diet Dr. Pepper will be missed dearly I'm going out with a bang tomorrow by having brunch and a cupcake to Celebrate my birthday early! My surgery is May 6th and my birthday is on the 19th... Although I'm excited about my upcoming changes, I'm also scared. food has been my crutch, my companion, my go-to and my love (before my daughter came along). Is it weird that I almost want to cry because it won't be there for me like before? It feels like I'm losing a loved one. Is this normal? Does anyone else feel or has felt this way?

[NewAshes 232]

Yeah..I'm addicted to Asian food and its going to kill me not to have any of it

[Vixynne 695]

Jessica, I've probably got a few months before I'm standing where you are, but everything you say makes perfect sense to me. For me, too, food has been a constant companion and a constant comfort. Feeling anxious? Eat a little sumpin'. Feeling sad? There's ice cream in the freezer...Feeling happy? Cupcakes for everyone!

food has been my go-to for many years, too. It never judged me, never disappointed me (well, not emotionally, anyway) and always made me feel content. Now I'm preparing to "break up" with the friend who's always been there, yikes!

For me--and it may not be this way for you--food is like an abusive boyfriend. It *seems* to always be there for me, but it wants to control my happiness and hold me back. It's really a toxic relationship that could someday kill me, or at least shorten my life by giving me diabetes or heart disease.

So, yeah. Mourn a little, because you are saying goodbye to a familiar, comfortable part of your life. Just keep in mind, it's part of your life that NEEDS to be shown the door. And later on, you'll get back a better version that isn't able to cause you so much harm.

[Jessica H 79]

Thanks, Vix! Happy to know there are others that feel that way too. And I think you're right about the abusive part. It has held me back and controlled my life for so long, I won't know how to act when it's not a huge part of my life anymore. I almost cried at Target today when I was stocking up for my liquids. And my daughter had donuts, oatmeal cream pies and other crap in the cart. It's going to be a hard 2 weeks! I work for a doctor's office and we're always showered with Cookies, cupcakes, ice cream, donuts, etc. And I have a drawer for food at my desk. I have to remember not to reach in and grab something! Guess I should clean that out come Monday, so there's no chance of me slipping. These 6 mos have flown by... hope the next 2 go fast too!

[Vixynne 695]

Every time you want to reach for the "bad boyfriend" in the next couple of weeks, just remember, all of his "awwwwwwbaby, I didn't mean it, I loooooove you" is a buncha lies.

Good luck, I know you'll do great! I can't wait till I'm just two weeks from the procedure--then you can remind me not to listen to the "bad boyfriend"!

[celo 0]

In 2 days, I'll start my 2 week liquid diet. I've spent the last week eating and drinking whatever sounded good or could get my hands on. I'm fearful of never having some foods again, due to tolerance or texture. And I know I can't (or not supposed to) have soda ever again. My Diet Dr. Pepper will be missed dearly I'm going out with a bang tomorrow by having brunch and a cupcake to Celebrate my birthday early! My surgery is May 6th and my birthday is on the 19th... Although I'm excited about my upcoming changes, I'm also scared. food has been my crutch, my companion, my go-to and my love (before my daughter came along). Is it weird that I almost want to cry because it won't be there for me like before? It feels like I'm losing a loved one. Is this normal? Does anyone else feel or has felt this way?

Wow I only had to do liquid for a day before. I just had my sleeve surgery on the 18th April. Two days later I feel really good. Of course all my husbands foods looks delicious. You'll do just great. Good Luck

[Jessica H 79]

Thank you!! I'll be here to make sure you don't have a weak moment!

[AmyinMI 5]

The behaviorist in my program said almost the same thing. There will be a period of loss & mourning. I am finding it helpful to write a physical list of alternatives. Things to do when I would normally turn to food. Good Luck, you can get through this.