With Blind Faith and Trepidation...

[Lawrence Washington 124]

With Blind faith and trepidation...

I find myself, like many others im sure feeling a sense of trepidation (feelings of fear about something that may happen), but I also have Blind Faith(belief without full understanding) about it.... It's one of those situations that is similar to many of life's obstacles... Or as Randy Pausch would say about Brick Walls... "The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough" ... I find myself in front of a brick wall... and Im in the role of a lifetime as a master climber...

I decided long ago that I was important and worthy and that I was going to live, but I had never decided that I needed help. I went on with a "One Day..." attitude... and each day became just that... "One Day..." I couldnt see the forest for the trees.... I was afixed on the problem, defeated, but beleiving I was trying, believing I was able to win -alone......

I am 4 months into the process of seeing my PCP for 6 months before surgery and I was recently told that I no longer need 6 months, 4 months is what my insurance now requires... So this week i have my psych evaluation scheduled, and next week i have my upper GI and final PCP appointment... Then i can send over the papers to my surgeon-get a surgery date-and then they will submit the paperwork to my insurance-and BOOM!!! I did it..

With Blind Faith and Trepidation...

I started this process by saying "Im going to do it this time"... because i said I was going to do it before in the past.. and never did... But Im doing it now and Im right there... almost... I will be having my Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy in May of 2013... Me, the guy who has never had a stitch in his entire life... The guy with anxiety and fear, the guy who didnt have faith in anything because he didnt have faith in himself..... My life is about to change drastically and I can feel it... I have already begun to choose differently. I am currently having GNC total lean shakes for Breakfast and lunch in an attempt to prepare myself for the 2 week pre op diet, and Im already seeing and feeling the results... My shirts feel better, my pants are looser... and I feel good about taking this step...

OK guys and gals, Fellow pre-sleevers... Consider This as my introduction.... With Blind Faith and trepidation.

[Lissa 2,631]

Chopz, Welcome to VST! I understand how you're feeling oh so well. I, too, went on blind faith and trepidation when I had my surgery. I had so many health problems that I was convinced I'd die on the table and I was willing to risk that to save my own life. 120 pounds lighter and 18 months later, it was the absolute best decision I've EVER made in my life. I congratulate you on taking this huge step, on taking control of your own life, and on being brave enough to admit it out loud. Good luck on your journey!

[JerseyGirl68 1,172]

Welcome and congratulations on your decision for YOU! I had never been in the hospital prior to my surgery. This is, by far, the best decision I ever made for myself. Yes, you should have concern, but keep it measured and stay focused.

Happy to have you here!!

Best of luck

[Spatters3 315]

Welcome aboard the weightloss train! It took 3 total knee replacements (yes, 3), a foot rebuild (4 plates, bone graft, 16 screws) and multiple attempts at losing weight for me to finally admit to myself that there was no way I could lose this excess weight without surgical intervention. I almost denied myself right into being an invalid! The power chair is now a towel rack

[Lawrence Washington 124]

Thanks for the warm welcome... New details to come soon... Im looking at May 10th as my date. Just got that info from my surgeons office... If all goes well with My psych and my upper GI, Im there... Yayyyyy!!!!

[Kristina J. 581]

Chopz, I am so excited for you to take this step!! I know the fear and the anxiety is a big brick wall, but your life will be so much better!!!

And, I'm getting sleeved on May 11th!! Looking forward to watching you progress!!! Keep us updated!!!