First surgeon appt tomorrow....

[Crkrjax76 76]

I'm starting to get nervous! I've already been trying to cut back and watch what I'm eating and slowing down on sodas. I know this is all things I'm going to have to do, so I'm taking the steps now so I don't go into shock when I actually HAVE to do it. I know I get to skip a couple steps like sleep study and gallbladder since I've already had my gallbladder removed and am already on a CPAP machine. I'll have to go through a 3 month Dr. supervised diet for my insurance.

I just I'm just rambling on and on. I keep thinking...what if I do really good on this diet and the insurance says, you can do it on your own??? I've got over 200 lbs to lose and I've gotten to the point where I KNOW I can't do this alone. I've started and dropped Weight Watchers more times than I can count...

My husband doesn't really approve of WLS, but keeps saying he will support me in any decision I make for myself. But I have noticed that he is not very open to me talking about it. He doesn't stop me, but I can just tell he's not really listening to me. Although I do believe he is making an effort. I will have a big support system in my niece, who is hopefully coming to live with me before my surgery. I also have a cousin who had lapband about 10 years ago, and she's a big support as well, although she lives 400 miles away but is always a phone call away.

I know this surgery (or any other WLS) is not a cure all and that it will be like a walk in the park to lose weight afterwards. I know I will have to work harder than I've ever worked at anything in my life. But I worked very hard to have my son. And if I went through that, I can go through this so that I can be the mother I want and need to be to him. I don't want to be a mother on the sidelines. I want to be right in the middle of it!!

Right now, I don't go to movies or concerts or ballgames or anywhere like that. I'm too big to fit in the seats. I can't go into a store and buy clothes. I have to order my clothes online. I have a horrible time finding shoes due to my feet being so wide and fat. I even have a hard time finding socks for goodness sake!!

Those are all the reasons I'm doing this and more. I want to be off my CPAP machine. I'm afraid I'm beginning to have high blood pressure. I don't want to go on meds for that. I want to be able to go in a store and buy an outfit. I want to be able to take my son to the park and actually PLAY with him instead of sitting on the bench watching him. I want to be able to go to a concert and not worry about fitting in the seat or crowding out the person next to me.

Thank you all for your time in reading this and letting me vent. I actually feel better now that I got this off my chest!

[anniemay 150]

Do you mind me asking what your husbands concerns are? Has communicated them to you?

[ISleevedIt 380]

your husband is just probably concerned for you. you've got lots of support here also. I just love this site!

[Crkrjax76 76]

He just doesn't think the surgery is safe. Like I said, he hasn't said anything and has been supportive but just doesn't really like to talk about it. I'm not going to let that stop me. This is my health, not his.

[namada 37]

From my perspective this surgery is the best thing I've ever done for myself. I had approximately 200 pounds to lose and knew it just wasn't going to happen on my own. Too many years of trying and failed diets. I'm six months out tomorrow and down a total of 125 pounds, 100 since the surgery. My husband has been very supportive. Just be open with your husband about how important this is to you. I'm sure he will come around.