Why is Mother Nature such a moody witch?!?

[mezanne1401 190]

Guys, stay clear! Ladies (and the guys who read beyond the first sentence), I apologize for the TMI, but I need to vent and can't do so on FB. Since we've all talked about sex, bowel movements and wounds, I figure I'm safe here!

I have never had regular periods. Even when I was a teenager, I would go two or three months without one, but since I was a virgin until I was 18 and have only been with one man, my husband, I never worried about being pregnant like others normally would! So, the bigger/heavier I got, the fewer periods I would have. I haven't had a period in probably a year now and I started yesterday. I'm wondering now if I will start to be regular since I've lost weight. I weighed 215 pounds in high school and right now I am 245 (down 82 pounds!!!!), so I've never been at a healthy weight to see if a normal weight would have me regular.

With that little bit of my personal history aside, I've never been quite so happy to start!!!! Maybe one day I will be healthy enough to finally have a baby!!!! I'm 31 now and have been married for 11 years (12 in April) and my husband would love to have a child. I've always played the "We can't afford a child" or "I'm not quite ready yet" cards, but secretly I was scared because I knew deep in my heart that I could not add another 30-50 pounds to my 327 pounds. I knew I wouldn't be able to pick up my child out of their crib because of my debilitating back pain. Now, my back pain is GONE!!! I lifted a couch over my head with my husband to load it into his truck. I will be able to pick up my baby and play with my baby!!!! I am now excited about getting to goal because of more than just getting to goal! We can start trying for a baby soon!!! I'm over half way to goal, so it may be here sooner than I thought. My mom will finally get her first grandbaby (I'm an only child). My only living grandparent, my grandma, will finally get her great grandbaby (I'm the only grandchild). My husband is the only son without a baby and we get treated very differently by his side of the family because we haven't given his mother a grandbaby and maybe that will stop! I think I'm almost ready for a baby!!!! I haven't told anyone about these feelings as they have just sort of exploded from me as I'm writing this!

I've gone off on a tangent since I've just had an epiphany with this post. What I originally meant to post about was being on my period after WLS and wanting to eat everything in site! OMG!!! I have been sucking on suckers to ease the sweets cravings and munching on peanuts like crazy! I know these are not healthy at all and I know I will get bashed for that, but the need to munch and snack is insatiable! I never thought about this before surgery because I was so irregular, but at this moment, I could go to Golden Corral and stick my head under the chocolate waterfall thingy and not feel an ounce of regret!!!! Only five days left and I will be so glad when I'm back to my new old self!!!!

Sorry for the super long post! I think it was a little therapeutic!!!

[TES 858]

Your new world is full of wonderful possibilities! Great job!

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

My mom always said, "someone needs to sit mother natures ass down and have a serious chat with her"

I have been wishing for menopause since I had my last kid and I swear ole TOM will still be visiting me when I'm 70.

Good luck on your baby adventure and don't cave to those bad eating craving. Try to think of this way.. Would you let your child eat that?

Prayers to you